Let Imagination Take Flight

Stewardship

2009-12-28T01:44:00.000+08:00

Help me be a better steward of the possessions that You have placed into my hands.

Twitter

2009-07-30T00:00:00.001+08:00

Thinking to myself... since i am so lazy to updated most of the time... i think i should put twitter on my blog... maybe it helps... LOL

2009-07-23T00:52:00.001+08:00

Recently… this thought came to me and haunt me… i have been around for 7 years… and what have i actually accomplished and done for Him? Anything that actually further expand His Kingdom? Anything that i have done that actually brings glory to Him? …

How much time am i going to waste? How much time i have actually left to complete what i was originally tasked to do? What have i left hanging in my heart and not strive and complete them but be distracted and stray away from his original plan?

Where is my heart?

Birthday? Not…

2009-07-07T00:19:00.001+08:00

Hrm… it was 22 years and 3 days already… haha!… yuppie yuppie yup yup… it was my birthday on 3rd July… last friday ^^…

I thought i should be quite excited to be posting updates on my birthday… but i guess this year’s birthday compared to last year … it was pretty plain compared to it… since last year was a 21st birthday with a PARTY… LOL…

This year… thanks to…

*Janice for the really nice tee shirt and the day out to JP for Billy Bombers (Thx for the treat) and the cute movie (ICE AGE 3)… it was a nice day out with her…

*Jin Quan, Ru Long and Zhen Long dinner at Waruku Pasta which though wasn’t really that satisfying… (Both me and Jin Quan complained about it… LOL XD) and the abit boring movie (Duplicity… but the tub of ICECREAM in the cinema was AWESOME XD)…

*Julia for the nice nice Monster card… XD…

*My family for the dinner with the superb cake from EMI Cake…

*GOD! for the day that he have shown me his love by bringing me here on earth…

Update!

2009-06-29T15:24:00.001+08:00

HAHA!… since PEOPLE is chasing me to update my blog… i think got no choice… super persistent… >.<…

Since the last time i have blogged… it have been quite eventful actually…

Firstly… i was invited to a secondary school friend’s wedding… it was kind of early i have to say … since its a guy at 22 getting married in Singapore context… Usually in Singapore… you will be happy that some get married at the age of 27? maybe… i think so… It was quite a gathering as there were quite a number of friends around there as we bring back our memories of the pas… all the funny stupid things that we have done… “torturing” teachers… and how horrible were the teachers… LOLXD… and thanks to Ken Lim who have lend me his car… allow me drive down to that Ulu place… Ah…

Soon… it was my trip to Genting… no!… i should have said that it was my FIRST trip to Genting… that makes me feel so “sua ku”… Never never in my life that i have went there before… so obviously… the theme park and everything was new… I have my first hand experience in a casino… Looking at the faces of the people… depressed… desperate… damn bored… LOL… some just simple got too much money i guess… i went to the jackpot machine with 10 ringgit and spent it all in 5 minutes… >.< quite depressing… but anyway… i just wanna try out so… i din stay in there for long …

On the second day of the trip… we went to the theme park… WOOHOO!… say yeah! to Space Shot!… it was the most thrilling ride i have taken so far… we were raise to the height of about 20 storeys and hang here… next moment with an acceleration downwards sending you off your seat… not able to shout a single thing out of your mouth due to shock… WHAHA… next moment i was like laughing like crazy… i dunno why… i think the feeling of that thrill to me is funny… but anyway… when i was taking the ride… a monk was seated next to me… LOL… he din make a single sound too… i wonder… The rest of the ride was ok … namely “Cock Screw”, “Cyclone” and the “Swinger”… Ah… and the “Marry Brown” is very nice lahz… why can’t singapore have that fast food joint… :S

And soon… i am back traveling to Singapore!…

After the trip… my next stop is Downtown East, Wild Wild Wet… Seriously saying… its like far more expensive than any other Swimming Complexes… but rides there are nothing sia… quite a waste of time if you seriously got there for the fun of the rides and slides and whatever… but if with the friends you enjoy with … it might be fun… I thank God i went there with the SPF voucher that allow me to go in at a super cheap price… Anyway… i forgot what was that thing called… but i almost fell out of my float when i was push down the slope that was freaking steep… >.<… and thats the most thrilling there… but think i enjoy myself the most at the “SABO POOL” i called… at the center of the place… where we filled the pails with water and splash them at ppl who walked pass… LOL!… it was fun… seeing their faces when the sudden splash of water on them… WAHAHA… *Evil Grin*…

I guess it was pretty eventful for the past weeks… i will soon update about this week… ^^

Zealot Chalet

2009-06-17T23:59:00.001+08:00

For the pass 2 days, was at the NSRCC for Zealot Area Chalet (ZAC) LOL… its my name!… XD… random…

I was tasked to be the “Driver” lah… so as the name suggest… i am the driver of the church van… sending people in and out of the chalet and going out to get stuff lohz… Its actually quite fun i have to say… since i get to have my driving experience and get myself more used to driving… Also… besides that… i get to know more people and talk to different people…

During the chalet… most of the time was free and easy… slack… eat and sleep… play with card games… screaming stupid lame songs… You name it we have done it… Get to know quite a few new faces … it was fun i have to say… i have my fill of chips till i get sick of them… we have become the “nua-er” (Rot-ter)… started by JJ… LOL… Seen lots of funny stuffs…

On the first day… I drove the van together with Liang Zhi, Xue Le, Irvin and Wee Kiat… Ahah… we almost lost our way… LOL… but still alright… we still did found out way back lahz… so not too bad i guess… Since its my first time driving there… After unloading and stuff… and checking into the chalets… we just slack and slack… until the night time for dinner and sessions… In between… i went to the swimming pool alone and also went to the Jacuzzi just beside the pool… It was relaxing… until it was about to drizzle… i quickly wash up and went back to the chalet…

The guys side was so dirty that you can see titbits on the ground… you can see sweet wrappers… no one actually bothered to take care of the cleanliness of the place… i don’t understand how they actually bear with it… but i am totally disgusted… we quite a few of us usually go over to the girls side to slack lah… where the place was so much cleaner… After the 1st session by Derek on ‘Passion’… we just slacked by and play some card games and we get everyone to sleep as there will be session on the next day…

On the Second day… Morning i drove San Peng out to Tenah Merah MRT… as i do not know the way out … i trial and error… it took me quite a while to get there when it actually only take 5 minutes to get to the MRT station… i feel quite bad causing him to be late for school… in the midst of the trial and error… i almost got into an accident… The stupid shade ‘thingy’ doesn’t hold properly and hang half way down which actually blocks my vision abit… I was actually speeding up and next moment i realised it was red light which was actually blocked by the shade ‘thingy’… i had to do an e-break which actually caused a loud screeching sound and there was a boy just in front… i almost pee in my pants i think… Ah…

Anyway… after that… i find my way back to the chalet and the session is about to start… After the 2nd Session by Irvin on ‘Prayer’… the few of us starts to NUA with the Nua-ers… and just slack there watching spelling bee… LOL… after which we actually slacked all the way to dinner time… and follow by the last session by You Beng on ‘Resilience’. After the session… i drove some of the guys out as they have school the next day… then when i come back… we started out “Midnight Games’… Zombie and ‘Hide-And-Seek’… it was quite lame but i think we had fun… all the way till 2.30am…

After that we have series of ‘Saboteur’ and ‘Bangs’… when we have bring out our lying and acting skills … quite alot of crap came out though… (RONALD!.. better regret not believing me!!!)… LOL… anyway… we ended at 5.40 am and officially knocked out at 6.30am… I get to sleep coz have to drive back to church in few hours time…

Woke up at 8.30am and we checked out of that place… That marks the end of the Zealot Chalet… Awesome!

ORD Lohz…

2009-06-13T00:57:00.001+08:00

Wow wow wow… 2 years have passed by… and NS life have come to an end… Some people say that when the race is coming to an end… it will get tougher and tougher even though the urge to push on is so strong when the finishing line is right before your eye…

Finally on Monday 15/5/09, i will officially ORD and something pink will finally return to my wallet… allowing me to know that i have completed the days of NS life… Didn’t blog these few days because of the big pile and pile of work falling on my desk… up to the point that i almost couldn’t breathe literally… so so so worn out… Often i ask myself… why is it that people can let go and just become “set free” when they ORD but i am holding on so tight and this sense of belonging is so strong… and i feel like i have the responsibility to keep my branch running… Some people might think i am stupid… but i guess not bah…

I will be on 3 weeks leave… taking a break out of the the fast moving office… receiving arrows and bullets coming my way but i can only ‘eat’ them up with perseverance… I do not know what kind work i will be seeing on my desk… but hopefully by then i have fully recharged and be ready for another ‘war’ with the ‘monstrous’ work trying to pierce me…

And yah!.. yesterday went to anchor point and got myself 2 top and a dress belt… XD…

and tada~!

There’s one more black shirt but i haven’t take it out yet… hahaz… anyway… thanks to my dad who helped me to iron it super straight… woooooooo…

Congrats to myself and HAPPY HOLIDAYS!

Crumbling

2009-06-07T00:45:00.001+08:00

If i am a wall… i just seems to be crumbling down…

People are becoming stronger as i crumbling down the valley…

Light i do not see while only darkness fills my way…

Eye i do have but blindness describes me…

Touch i can yet sense have lost me…

Maze…

2009-06-06T01:39:00.001+08:00

Is things always so complicated?

Why must things always end up like this?

I don’t know how long can i go on like this…

There doesn’t seems to be a way out of this maze…

I am trapped…

Help me out of this…

So worn out… so badly…

Aren’t things bad enough to stop these things going?

Maybe this is true…

“What doesn’t kills you make you stronger…”

Exams Results

2009-06-04T19:50:00.001+08:00

Hmmm… my exam results… i failed one module… :S… da bao…

Crying heart

2009-06-03T18:19:00.001+08:00

Today was average busy… but yet work is never able to be finished… i don’t know why… have i been procrastinating? but … 24hrs is all the time i have… and there aren’t much that i can do… can never finish…

At this moment… my heart just seems to be tearing… for whatever reason… i don’t know…

back to work…

Sick of it…

2009-06-02T22:22:00.001+08:00

Things have come to this stage whereby i have to bring work back to do… how pathetic… i think i am going to miss the radical conference completely… more probably OT all night… tomorrow’s cell group is unseen in my schedule… can’t put it in… how? things are so tight… >.<

I just want my own time on my own… doing things that i want anyhow anyway anywhere… no control… no control… set free… whatever whenever wherever possible…

Work’s piling up…

2009-06-01T10:47:00.001+08:00

Many asked me why never updated… sometimes really don’t know what to type in here… things have gotten quite odd and complex… hard to articulate into words… putting my thoughts into this blog…

Since the last time i updated was about half a month ago… i really wonder how should i summarize my “status” now… busy or free?

Few weeks ago… have been considering if i should let go… yet there are so much things that hold me back… so much things that stop me from doing so… sometimes it seems so bad… All the good things stops me and hold me back… yet thinking inside me… what if this is gonna drag till the future… is this gonna do me any good? sometimes i really don’t know… i think i can be rather irrational… sometime i think i really don’t understand my own thoughts… its too much more complex that i can decipher… a man inside a man? >.<

While all these things are going in my mind… the stuff and my work place is constantly piling up at a rapid speed… putting me into this “workaholic” mode… going back to work for both Saturday and Sunday… wondering why people that going to ORD is getting more free while i get more busy… this sucks… but i guess i have to think in away that its a experience… i certainly think… i can manage stress better now…

For the 2 weeks… due to different events and work piling up… which actually result in OTs after OTs… which actually meant to miss cell group and practices and Service… >.<… i miss seeing all the peeps …

Time to let go?

2009-05-14T01:35:00.001+08:00

Is it time? Time to let go? Totally?

After i let go… will it be like this? letting go beautifully … like stars and glitters? i do not know…

Life might be better…

Life might be lonelier…

Life might be with more freedom…

Life might be with more boredom..

It’s gonna be unpredictable…

What should i do? How can i protect one and hurt one at the same time? Confused…

Busy…

2009-05-13T00:23:00.001+08:00

Nowadays… don’t know why… things seems to be becoming more busy for me at work… when people have already ORD and clear off their part in their NS life… but what am i doing in the same office for another 9 more months trying to serve the country more ? i don’t know… i guess my finishing line have been pushed back and my target have been relocated to be at the graduation of my degree in SIM-RMIT…

Work doesn’t seems to be ending… coming in everyday… just a morning away can choke up 28 Emails … just a morning away can have 5-6 miss calls… just a morning away can have 10 over people looking for you for whatever reason… Everyone is taking MCs … trying to chao geng and what am i doing in that office? LOL XD

Things seems to be stacking up each day… i looking forward to the day when my junior will take over my work… woah… hurry hurry up!… i pray…

Holidays?

2009-05-07T00:53:00.001+08:00

As the time tick by… on the 4th of May 2009… 4.32pm… as the invigilator announced the end of the paper… It the time when my holidays started…

Time flies… one semester of studies just passed by like this… and follows by 2 months of holidays… provided i don’t fail any of my modules… its just another 3 semesters to go… Sounds like fast…

Holidays…

Shouldn’t i be now by the beautiful beach and enjoying the sun…

Or watching the sunset somewhere…

Or maybe enjoy the view up from the mountain…

Or bathing under the water fall…

How i wish… LOL… all sounds so nice… maybe i should go on some backpack trip myself someday… and go on some long hike away from the fast moving world and look at all these wonderful God’s creation… giving my brain and heart some time to rest, refresh and recover…

As it move towards the second half of the year… things at work seems to be getting more packed each day… gotta say “jia you” to myself lohz…

Zac Longs for holiday………

Wedding

2009-05-03T21:08:00.001+08:00

Yesterday was a quite joyous day for me … was actually invited to 2 wedding on the same day… simply awesome… and coincidentally… both venue locate along the north-east line … so thank God it kind of easy for me to travel from on to another… and 2 even differs in timing by 3 hours… allowing me to show my presence sufficiently in both places… ^^

First wedding is was kind of messed up in a way… Those that were early was made to wait for more than 1 hour because the pastor that suppose to do the holy matrimony was actually late… and next… he was dressed simply with a shirt and tie… i was quite shocked… the best part was that the whole event only lasted for 5 minutes? and it follow with some photo taking session… arrangement was kind of poor i have to say… but i have to say … it was a young marriage… my colleague was only 24?…

The second one is wedding of a campus crusade staff at NP last time… very nice guy… and the bride was really sweet looking… ^^… anyway… the wedding went on really well and the sanctuary was classic … very nice place… with the funny pastor that spoke English funnily ( be loyal and kick him ) when it suppose to be “be loyal and keep him”… LOL… lots of laughter here and there… with the bridegroom singing for the bride… and their speech to thank everyone… the touching moments…

It was awesome… makes me want to get married soon too … haha!

Shot in the Head

2009-04-28T23:08:00.001+08:00

“HEAD SHOT!”…

Gosh… i think today’s paper is a shot to my head… totally killed me…

I really hope it doesn’t… what i can do is to hope for the best… there is nothing i can do so… i shall not get depressed or whatever… even though i was worried till siao just now… hmph…

5 more days and its the end of this semester… It sounds so sweet yet… sounds scary… i never wanna see any ‘F’ in my result slip… it will be definitely devastating… why does it feels worst than waiting for O’levels result?!

That’s it… i shall stop thinking about it…

Anyway… pain is still there… pls pray for me… Thank you^^

God please help me…! God please help me… God!

Backache Again

2009-04-27T00:03:00.001+08:00

There is nothing much i can say today… but simply painful…

The backache seems to have made a come back in me and actually returned and have a big fight in my body today…

The pain in almost unbearable as i walk around… almost have to limp sometimes…

Pls pray for me… Thank you…^^

Hopefully its not a long MC awaiting me…

Hands…

2009-04-24T22:37:00.002+08:00

Today had my first paper ever in SIM… really quite crappy… and nervous actually… >.<

The above is my exam notice… goodness… i was so confused by the venue… one write “SIM HQ (HALL – LEVEL 4)” and another write “Grand Hall”… but the 4th floor got only 1 hall… this caused me to be panicked for quite a while… thinking that the exam venue might be the another SIM along Bukit Timah Road… but through confirming with my friends… yah… i was right from the start… >.< … quite dumb…

After Exam… rushed down to Church as Today we had filming for the PD Team… Film down the PD to show the principal of BBSS … proposing to perform during the School’s opening ceremony… but things doesn’t seems smooth at all … the actual filming only started at 7pm when the booking start from 5pm and people start coming at 6pm due to school and stuff and unforeseen circumstances…

Once again… i have learnt something today…

Hands…

Hands… Hands to Create…

Hands… Hands to Protect…

Hands… Hands to Love…

Hands… Hands to HELP?…

Often… we said that we love one another… but we really don’t show it… and people says that we are hypocrite…

When does a person need help the most??? The time when time runs out… when things become urgent… when things become critical… No doubt that at times it might be the person’s fault at time management or whatever… but when someone needs help… what is stopping us from helping?

Pride?

Leisure?

Comfort?

Helping is the most genuine… When one goes out of one’s way to help… Out of his/her plans and schedule… Without any gain or benefit… but simply with LOVE…

Backache

2009-04-20T21:32:00.001+08:00

These few days have been constantly having this back pain … when i sit for sometime… as i try to stand up it will hurt alot…. i really do not know whether is it my sleeping position or what… and yesterday it got worst… when i stand up with my back pain… my leg will twitch and will have a pull in my ligament… and i will start limping away…

This wasn’t something new actually… ever since 2 years ago… my legs have been like the on and off… just that this time come with back pain… Hopefully i am not turning to be like the guy below…

Today went to polyclinic to see a doctor and see what the doctor will have to say.. he just simply give me pain killer and ask me to rest… said that i simply pulled my muscles and ligaments… thats all… and i am like shoo off… feel so cheated…

Since i have got a MC … i didn’t went to work… but … with the medicine that give me drowsiness … i went home and slept till the time for knocking off… LOL…

Really pray that my back will recover fast…

Heart Broken

2009-04-19T00:33:00.001+08:00

This is what happened to one when heart broken… LOL XD…

These few days have been bothered with some issues of the heart…

How is it then can we see whether someone really loves another?

How is it then can we see whether someone really cares?

How can one group of people being together for so long and yet do not have any relationship with one another? How can one group of people see each other day in day out and have yet to develop care and concern? How can one group of people not have any sense of belonging or ownership to the group when they have been together for more than a year?

God… It’s all in your hands…

Study? Study not? BAHH!

2009-04-17T22:53:00.001+08:00

Gosh… i simply can’t get myself to start…

Look at that big fat books…

Look at the ruler… its actually about 9 – 10 cm thick… looking at the books really “kills my soul”…

looks at i am really not a day time studying guy…

I might have gotten some influence from my second sister a late night mugger… when she was in SAJC… she mug till 3am in the morning… and meet all kind of night creatures… lots of adventure she has…

I am morphing… >,<

Am i gonna end up like that?! ^^^^

Or will i end up eating my books?! ^^^^^

Gosh… i think i better start studying before i turn in some monster.. LOL XD…

A post deposit all my stupid emotions and my crazy thoughts that is distracting me… =P

Devastated not?

2009-04-16T19:43:00.001+08:00

Finally after sometime… i have decided to start studying for my exams … since it 8 days away… i think its gonna be tough…

Before i can even start with my studying… i went into my hotmail to check out my inbox… but i am greeted with a mail telling me that i was marked down… how exciting… It gives me a kick in my butt … tells me wake up!

Do i end up with

or…

…

Never in my life i ever though that i will be marked down by classmates… never… but … what am i gonna do about it? cry and start wining about it?

I guess not… i just got to work harder huh?… even though it seems like i will sure fail the module… what to do? … I just gotta believe that this is a lesson that i gotta learn… and God is definitely teaching me something… i got to realise that… I got to wake up… i will walk through this tough path… not by myself… God will bring me through… He will…

Jia you bah… Zac…

Love Me?.. Love Me Not?…

2009-04-15T23:20:00.001+08:00

Have been thinking about this question… What is the things you will do when you say you love someone?

If you say you love your siblings/parents… are you gonna shout at them all the time?

If you say you love your friends… will you gossip about them?

If you say you love your brothers and sisters… will you see them sin and do nothing?

Is your love in line with God’s love? … then is your love in line with your actions? A single bit of difference make it different…

More Movies, More Meat balls!

2009-04-14T23:42:00.001+08:00

These 2 days have been crazy…

Yesterday… i went to movie… and watched the Shinjuku Incident…

It wasn’t Jacky Chan’s normal fight and never dies show… because he really died in the end… LOL… Even though i wished for more actions from him… but overall … its still quite a cool show… showing those mafias chopping each other… (imaging chin yang)… one of the highlights is the chopping off of one of the gang leader’s hand and the blood actually “splashed on the camera” … very nice effects and a super classic expression shown by the “victim”… LOL…

But i have to say… the ending kind of din end well… It didn’t really wrap up the story properly…. i would give it a 3.5 stars…

Today i took leave to celebrate birthday with my special friend, Janice…

Happy 17th Birthday!

We start of the day with another movie… The Sniper!

Awesome show for some sniper fans… quite cool seeing them doing all the special shoots … most of the show was actually quite monotonous… One of the sniper pro actually turn crazy… turning against the sniper team… the story didn’t really explain alot of things… therefore cause quite abit of confusion… the finale actually quite cool… having a “duel” between the pro sniper and the sniper team… with all the distance gauge and the “tactical” movements…

Serious… this show can be further developed … but i think comparing effects wise… “Wanted” would do better… I would give it a 3 stars…

The day followed with lunch at IKEA!

Look at that meat balls… ah!… i miss it the moment i left the place… 15 pieces is not even enough… ^^ yum yum!

And soon… we decided to chiong for another movie at GV, Boon Lay… and we met Xinqi there… Thanks to her… able to get $4 per ticket!… WooT!… Thank you Xinqi!..

and we watched… Fast & Furious 4!

an As usual…. a show off of cars and “babes” … and most emphasized is the GPS system… really cool to have i think … if there is even such thing… the whole story actually twisted in the middle… making it more exciting… kind of enjoyed it … especially with the special “mod” cars… and the sound of the engine… WOOHOO!…

I would give it a 3.5 star…

Gosh… today’s movie all bring out the sadistic side of me… seeing how they get injured actually seems quite funny to me… LOL XD

And we ended the night with dinner at NYNY…

At first i thought i would be quite disappointed with the food… but in the end… it turned out quite well… the sauce is outstanding i would say… at the end of the meal… as we pay for the food… the following is returned to us…

LOL… 5cents… quite pathetic though…

Quite a eventful day… ^^… Thank God…

Thank you…

2009-04-12T23:25:00.001+08:00

Its have been really long since i blogged… i know that it have been dead for a long time… but just recently just feel like coming back to write again… If one says that he or she have nothing to write about… i don’t think so… it’s actually plain laziness… LOL…

For the last many months since September… much have happened… in November to December… as usual hectic time of the year filled with YI camp and Christmas bash… with lots of cookies baking overnights…

At the beginning of 2009, i gotten my Driving Licence on the 23 Jan… and my days follows with lots of drill practices with GB 10th Coy Pioneer Team… training for their Annual Drill Competition… This event weight on my days all the way till the March Holidays…

During those times… these girls are constantly on my mind… giving me headaches… giving me joy and laughter… squeezing my brain creative juices to choreograph movements and formations… and not forgetting the new name Commander Woo have given me… “JACK”… always to be remembered…

Soon after Drill Comp… comes the Precision Drills for Enrolment Service… with 8 young boys and girls… and 2 monkeys…

For the pass 2 weeks have been spending almost everyday with them… doing ridiculous movements and laughing at ourselves… Even though the time together was really short… friendships was definitely formed… With the miracle of God’s blessing on the Team… as we rely on Him… the Team had a change in mind set and reorganized the format of the drills and did really well on the actual day… I am amused by what God can do.. especially to the hearts of men…

All in all… in these 5-6 months… God have blessed me greatly as He placed different people in my life to remind me of his Greatly… and allow me to know him even more… in a different dimension… Teaching me his ways…

Thank you God for all these people and these wonderful memories…

Thank God

2008-09-08T23:14:00.001+08:00

Ah!!! today was a busy day for me. Have been busy all the way since morning till night, morning till evening, busy with the work that my boss have asked me to do and its actually to be done last week but there was alot of mistakes, thats why need to redo everything.

Becoz of the busy schedule, time flies by and i got no time to sit down and think too much but pray in my mind that everything will go smoothly. During lunch time my friends are talking about going to BBDC and stuff, i told them that i have lessons on thursday and friday, so i will be able to join my another friend and go together after work. But later at 5.40pm, i felt a prompting in my heart to check out BBDC to see if i have lessons today, to my surprise, i really did booked a for practice today! I rushed off from my work and rushed down to BBDC for practice. IF i were to hold on to my previous thoughts that i do not have a practice today, i would have miss out everything and wasted my money!

I don't know what exactly happened, but it definitely God who prompted me about the theory practice today! Thank GOD!

Just now went to Friendster, look around for updates of profiles and i saw this familiar and Dominic. Been a long long time since i saw him, have been years since i met him. He was my cell group member. I look through his pictures and look at him, i don't know why, but i think i do miss him, deep in my heart seems to be teary. Hope to see him back again.

God.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~ FOOD FOR THOUGHT ~~~~~~~~~~~~

Are you happy today? really happy? What makes your really happy?

Basic Theory/ Toothache

2008-09-07T00:25:00.002+08:00

Yesterday evening, after my work, went down to BBDC and took my Basic Theory Evaluation, it was lame sia. Super Lame. The day before the evaluation i actually took 2 hrs of practice to prepare for the evaluation, i was like so memorised the questions and answer lahz. LOL. On the day of the Evaluation itself, i like spent only 10 out of 45 mins to clear the evaluation and got full marks! yeah!! yeah!! HAha.

Ah! Painful, i don't know whats wrong, but about evening time, my tooth starts to hurt alot, i think its because of the jia lat cavity that i have, too big le, but no money to go do root canal, so it gonna hurt kind of bad :S. Don't know how, root canal is like gonna cost few hundred dollars. Really pray that God provide the finances for my dentist fee!.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ FOOD FOR THOUGHT ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Many people have been spending their free time clubbing or messing around outside, but have they really thought through what are they really doing for themselves and what are these clubbing gonna really affect their life as a whole? If the life that we are living is just what we gonna have, then is it worth it to just live it through by "chiong-ing" ? So if we gonna have another life, are we sure that we are "qualified" ?

In need of a breakthrough

2008-09-03T22:31:00.001+08:00

Ah... so many things seems to be going amok... so many things seems to be going through wrongly in life... change change change... I guess i am really in need of a break through...

Last Sat, Sis WP talked about fasting for breakthrough... looking at things going through... i think i can stop eating for quite some time... HAHA... too much breakthrough needed... Hopefully God will hear me louder when i fast... since i am so much of a glutton.. =P

It seems like... as people grow older ... life seems to get a big stagnated. Take a look at the people working office hour... everyday 8 to 5... after that... how many hours are there to actually do anything? Few weeks ago, just enrolled into BBDC, started with the theory lessons. Every week, set aside 2 days go down to BBDC after work, then the rest of the week either stay at home and rest or cell group or work OT. Ppl tell me that life for me seems to be really no life. Never really seems to meet much people or get to know much more thing. I think i really need to meet more people and learn more things and get some life.

Break through is really what i need....

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ FOOD FOR THOUGHT ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I believe everyone who have ever watch movie before, will see advertisement trying to tell people to stop stealing or stop supporting piracy. Somehow, this issues makes me think. Is this problem got to do with the moral of this society?

In many peoples mind, what is stealing? In many people's mind, stealing is taking stuff away from someone's ownership without the owner's knowledge and keep it for own usage or benefit.

So, in this case, is Piracy stealing? I guess so. So if Piracy is actually stealing. So, shouldn't its punishment should be as to those punished for literally stealing?

Thinking about it, if everyone is to spent the money to buy original, increasing the flow of money, i guess the economy will surely be definitely different. And now, some people will say, no money how to buy CDs or DVDs? So, doesn't it means that if you have no money to get something or being poor, it makes stealing or robbing right? Which means, doesn't it mean, if you have no money or not enough, does it makes piracy right?

Seriously think about it, but usually those people who actually does all these things, are not really the people who are really poor, but more of those people who only want material ones and want to do alot of things with little money. This is the society that we are living in. Which kind are you?

Rusty IT IDIOT

2008-08-24T01:29:00.001+08:00

Gosh... i think i am turning into some IT nerd... after so long time away from the computer and the internet world... because my brother is always using the computer, which means i got no chance to use at all... today when i check my mail... its like ... 445new mails?!... i am like craziness...

My dad, just a week ago bought over a lap top from MOE for 200bucks... not bad lahz actually, just that i don't like second hand or old stuff... :P...

right now... even when i come online... i got nothing much to do... even though i got so many contacts on MSN right? ... i don't really chat with anyone of them... its like so weird lah... am i like weird? ... no one talks to me ...

hahaz... this is getting really dumb...

more to come...

Vocation & Posting

2008-08-08T23:51:00.001+08:00

I seriously miss the days when i was still training in HTA... don't need to think of anything... don't need to worry about anything... just train and train... somemore still can keep fit... have all the friends around to play with... its like fun...

Right now... really not as nice... how i wish there is a better plan for us NSPI and give us better things to do ... or something much more experiencing... the life now is making my days really tired...

Since i am so desk bounded... got no choice but deploy myself out... so that i can know what the ground do... i really appreciate ground work...

NDP Preview...

2008-08-03T00:43:00.001+08:00

This is the first time i ever thought that NDP can be so nice lahz... hahaZ... or maybe just some part is kind of amusing...

Today i was deployed at Merlion Park there... kind of cool... patrolling around... lots of people/tourist... people taking photographs of that MERLION... that is spitting out water that was constantly blown in by the wind and sprayed on everyone who walks pass the walk way... lol... Salty!... lol... There was also a group of people taking photographs in their graduation gown.. kind of cool lahz... then my partner and i just walk around ... and the only bad thing is the hot weather...

Slowly as the time goes by... the sunset and comes with the breezy weather... cooling... but already very sticky le... :S... The parade starts at around 6plus i guess... and soon the planes are flying all across the sky... and was really impressed with the "heart" that the planes formed... really nice... then my friends was asking... "when is the planes gonna make 'love' ah?"... I almost fell into the river after i heard that... super funny sia... how planes make love?! ... duhz...

And comes the most awaited time when the sky is filled with fireworks and smokes that came with it... hahaZ... its really really amazing... it was too bad that i din get to watch it with some one special or something like that... i thought that it was really romantic... =)... hahaZ.... anyway... cool... and there was like quite alot of fireworks... cool...

But in the end... becoz the bus came later... we waited from 8plus to 10 plus for the bus to come fetch us...:S... sad...

Moody

2008-07-30T22:51:00.001+08:00

Ah~!... Today like seems to be super moody... whole day seems to be like in a daze... early in the morning kanna "kajiao" by the discipline master... give the very sian face to me... and of coz ... i have a very sian face... especially its like when i am the most busy time:S From the time i step into the office ... i feel like leaving... got no mood to work totally... :S bah!...

The only happy thing i can think about is that i will be deployed this saturday at the merlion park!.. .yeah!... I will have a full view of the fireworks and the full view of all the air performance... so happy =)... hopefully i can watch in peace and there aren't any chaotic scene around that place... =)...

Nowadays... somehow i think my knee problem seems to be coming back and kind of worries me... lol... hopefully i won't go about limping all my life~!.. wAHA... *Pray**Pray*

Tired... tired... never seems to be able to restore the energy... don't know why... :S...

Also, Janice, i do like that belt alot.. =) Thanks!

save SAVE save SAVE!!!

2008-07-28T22:23:00.001+08:00

Ah... i need to save big time... i wanna go mission trip!!... no money no money... "MONEY NOT ENOUGH 2" really came at the right time ah... it speaks my heart... LOL...

Today ... for the whole day... only spent $5.50... i thought it was really an achievement... hahaZ... so happy... but hopefully i can maintain...

Nowadays... work is getting more and more irritating... got to drag myself to work everyday... ah... so sad lahz... hrm... then its like whole day thinking of when can i get out of that place... then after work ... i also dunno where to go... if i go home early... i will be like breathing in all the "heavenly smokes" from my brother's cigarettes... and then he will be like "hogging" the computer and play game all day... ah... really don't understand how is he going to survive...:S

A day by the beach...

2008-07-27T23:36:00.001+08:00

Today woke up and jio by friend to go beach relax relax... though weather is kind of hot... but overall i think its really kind of relaxing lahz... like ... just .. "le pah le pah " then lie down under the shade... waiting for the breeze to come by... its really kind of shiok lahz... LOL... then coz its Changi Beach... so its like... lie there and see aeroplane ... guessing which airline is it ... lol... then when hungry then grab some snacks to eat... I guess i really need such things to rejuvenate sia... really like worn out.... and now kind of refreshed after a day at the beach... AH!... i am back "alive" ...

I think N Park should really do something with the place bah... if they really able to like re vamp the place... i think its quite nice to hang out around there ... =)... Thank God for beaches... ^^...

Nights Out with S.C.E.H.D.W

2008-07-26T01:36:00.001+08:00

Good Morning to all!... LOL... crazy me blogging in the early morning...

Just now went out with the group of them... Somewhat like a farewell dinner for D.K's 3weeks Training at Taiwan... At first din have a place to go... don't know where to have our dinner... and later we went to the Manhattan Fish Market at Central Mall... Beside Clarke Quay

It was nice la... actually wanted to take some photo lahz... but Cal ( I think she need more calcium to grow ) seems to be like hinting me that ... "stop being a cam whore " ... lol... then i am like... forget it... W.Q came super late because he lost his way and din really know where we were... so... he have some nice route march around the quay ... maybe that really made him very familiar with Singapore River now... ( W.Q... interested in some filming down the river? LOL )...

After dinner... went down the quay ... walking about ... trying to find a nice place to "le pah" one corner... but can't find a place to relax... walk walk walk... went pass this Max 5 thingy... wOaH... that bungee thingy is POWER lah... i shall try it some day...

Then went on to esplanade ( Durian ), end up at the Häagen-Dazs® ... super over priced ice-cream... but end up drinking some ... "Häagen-Dazs® Shake" ... It was quite nice lahz... but as i have said... over priced... End up getting myself super bloated and tired... WOOT...

At the end of the day... realising that i haev spent like 50 bucks just in one single night... how many nights can i actually spend like this... if i am going to spent like this every day... i going to cry :S... Seriously... unless your family is super well off... do seriously thinking about how you control and discipline your own spending ... if not you are going to suck thumb when you grow older man... when things seems to cost so much more... as standard of life improve... ones expenditures increase... so if you do not have the big head dun wear such a big hat... if not ... you will end up suffocated by the hat itself...

I was actually telling one the brother... telling them that since young... dun try to improve the standard of living... wait till you are really capable of keep doing it... if not ... as times goes by... will suffer... ah...

Happy Birthday To ME! (Belated) LOLX

2008-07-13T03:00:00.001+08:00

Ah, some of you must be complaining saying why i didn't update, ah, because i am super lazy to update

Firstly i shall Sing Myself a song...

"Happy Birthday to ME! Happy Birthday to ME! Happy Birthday to ME~~~e! Happy Birthday to ME!!!!!" ( i typed this on my birthday, so sounds slightly wierd...)

Wahaha... i think i am getting crazy because of my birthday. My birthday seems like an long lasting one... dragging since last sunday till today... and i think its gonna last till saturday... its really such a hype...

For the past 20 years i have nv really celebrated my birthday or inviting people to my PARTY~... and this year ... my 21st Birthday... supposing more significant... and its really made significant...

I have a thousands of names in my mind to thank, and if i messed up or forget one of you pls dun blame me or anything... whatever you have done have made this year's birthday more significant and more memoriable.

So... here it is...

Thank You List

Zealot - Thank you guys really so much for putting everything together for me, be it decorations, or whatever, there is too much that you guys have done, a BIG THANK YOU FOR ALL OF YOU! And of course thank you guys for that wonderful present an OVEN!!! A step closer to my PASTRY CHEF dream~ ( Dreaming... LOL)

NaNa - Thank you for that oven, its really really nice!

BRX - Bro! I really don't know what to thank you for, because you are just simply part of everything that happned~! Simply awesome, Really thank you for everything, EVERYTHING! And thanks for that mixer... i will get the cookie done fast... ^^

Da Jie, Jie Fu - Thank you for that wonderful tasting cake that i din get to taste... WAHAH!

Xie Lao Shi ( Mr Siah ) - Thank you for that awesome gift, i almost had a shock out of my life. Thank you very much.

Jinquan - Bro, thank you for these 10 over years of friendship, never to be forgotten. Thats the greatest gift you can give me.^^ And the perfume that you have given me is something that you really like yourself... it really touches me...

Weijian, Zhenlong, Rulong - Bros, thank you guys for all the wonderful times in HTA and the wonderful gift from you guys.

Shan Yao, Dek Kai, Lester, Mark, Jeremy, Anthony, Chin Yang - Brothers for life!... thank you guys for that wonderful MIXER"... more baking for me^^... also thank you guys for that perfume...=)

Marcus, Justin, Ghim Kee, Shaik, Ganesh, Shiyong, Ryan Chan & Tan, Andrew - Thank you guys for that really awesome looking wallet and key pouch, its really really nice... Awesome guys...

Xueyi, Minting, Jetson - We've got some big time catching up to do!... haha!... Thanks for that small but valuable gift... its really practical i have to say... THANKS!

Andrew, Gregory - That gift that you have given does really tells me how much you have known me, even though the friendship that we have wasn't really that long, but its really a heart melting one... Thank you guys...

Janice - Thanks girl for that nice looking tee shirt, hahaZ... i have wore it le~! =)

Joey, Joel, Joanna, Jeremy - Hey guys, Thanks for that tee!... really nice...

Rosaline, Adeline, Jerome, Karyn - AH!!! that black shirt fits nicely on me!! gosh... its really really nice... *SCREAMS* ... lol... really nice... Also... the card is really special... ^^

Mu En - Thank for that Amp, hope it wasn't too troublesome :)

Gladys, Mun Kidd - Thanks for the gift! Nice Bread..LOL

Gideon, Sunil, Leong - Thanks for that book... Its really useful... =)

Mel Goh - Thanks for that little bear... i hope i can come out with a design for it... LOLXZ

All those who attended the party

Thank you guys for making it so nice and awesome.

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The following if some of the pictures took that day...

For viewing pleasure...

2008-06-14T00:46:00.004+08:00

oh yeah... always forget to show you guys something that i was very proud of during my Passing out Parade... watch this...

I thought it was really nice... keke=P

2008-06-14T00:46:00.001+08:00

Worst Dining Experience...

2008-06-02T23:44:00.002+08:00

Ah.... keep it short... getting so sick about it...

Just now went for dinner with BRX and gang... at Siam Kitchen for buffet... wonderful ingredients ... SUPER FRESH prawns...

We actually spent 3 hours in the restaurant... Can you beat that?... gosh... i ate so much that my stomach became so bloated that i felt like vomitting... the first time i feel so sick about food... even now after few hours ... i am still like have "trauma" over what happened... I literally went to toilet and forced myself to puke... :S

This kills all my interest in any future buffets... lol... (suddenly feel like laughing at myself...

How then...?

2008-05-27T21:42:00.002+08:00

How then ... do you consider ... living worth while?...

How have you been living? ...

How have you been behaving? ...

What have you been going after? ...

What is the goal of your life? ...

What brings value to this life that you are living? ...

All these questions come to me after i read the verse of the day from biblegateway.com...

Acts 20:24
However, I consider my life worth nothing to me, if only I may
finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me — the task of
testifying to the gospel of God's grace.

How well have we been doing this task? ... ?

" God... please forgive and help me forget my past... please help me live to
make it all worth while... completing the task you have given... in the name of
Jesus, I pray, Amen. "

Scary...

2008-05-25T01:39:00.002+08:00

At the end of the sermon today... Ps Daniel talked about the two man having a totally different life... One of them living righteously, Godly... a man of character... yet another one a totally opposite... a man of unrighteousness...

The man that live righteously... have descendants that is blessed by God... most of them are all ministers in church... or doctors... writers... scholars...

The man that live unrighteously... have descendants that take on the curse because of the unrighteousness he have... many of them were drunkard ... drug addicts... jailed for at least 10 years...

Thinking twice... the life that we live in now is not ours... Not only that our life belongs to go... but our life that we live affects the life that our descendants gonna have... they are either gonna take on the blessings or if for the worst the curses ... Are we gonna be selfish about it?... Food for thought...

Passing Out Parade!

2008-05-08T12:50:00.004+08:00

"POP loh!!!"

a common phrase said by all NS men... for the second time i am saying this again... finally yesterday i have pass out from my Officer Cadet's Course... it have been 32weeks of fun, pain, shocking, and exciting experience... 7th May 2007 marks the end of my training phrase in National Service... finally gotten my rank as National Service Probationary Inspector, or commonly known as NSPI...

The whole day was super busy, full of things to do, rushing from one place to another... butterflies in my stomach... feeling excited about everything... but somehow something din work out really well is that it actually rains... in the end... out rank affixiation got to be done in the hall instead of the very beautiful and prestigious ground which is the ceremonial plaza... very very nice place... At the moment... it was like so dark... the sky is filled with dark clouds and the rain is getting heavier by the moment... it somehow brought down our excitement ... until we were ask to assemble at the ceremony hall... thats when all the excitement rushed into our nerves... we see all our families and friends...

Then soon the ceremony starts... the ceremony command marches in... and followed by the command to march us into the ceremony... the feeling is wierd... full of fear and joy at the same time... i was one of the 3 person who leads my squad into the ceremony... it was awesome... our parents is so near to us when we marches in... the next moment you see flash lights of cameras here and there... like super star? lol...
Then soon our parents are called in to put on the Inspector of Police rank for us... AH~!... the moment that all of us were waiting for ... its like finally... in my heart its like "POP loh!" ... took alot of pictures... it feels totally different after having the rank on my shoulders ... i don't know how to explain... but its really different...

Becoz of the rush in schedule... we can't join our parents with the reception becoz we need to rush to get prepared for the parade... the parade we have prayed for ... Thank God for allowing the parade to carry on... for allowing the rain to subside... The parade's highlight for all of us should be the march in and the march pass...

During the march in... the parade commander shouted "Kewalan Kohomatan, Masoh Baris"( sorry for the wrong spelling )... that command that suppose to ask for the Guard of Honour to get into parade... We shouted with our life ... "SIR!" ... one of the most proud-est moments... once again... i have the privilage to be one of the 4 to lead the Guard of Honour into the parade square...

And soon... into the march pass... where we changed from fast march to slow march... then back to fast march again... it was really awesome lahz... gosh... after so many practice... i think ... on the actual day itself... its the best... the rows were straight... the dressing is good... ah...

After the parade... after taking some pictures at the parade square... rushed back to change into my mess kit... or some people call it the penguin suit... really a cool uniform... spent alot of time wearing it... the whole OCT also have a photo taking together... very very nice... i saw it already...

The dining in as a whole was ok... the food is average... but i think the whole purpose is for us to receive our certs and to show us the video montage ... showing the things that we did during the 32 weeks of training...

After everything... we went back to barrack... rushing and rushing... pack and pack... some went home... some stayed on... This marks the end of my cadet life... i think i will definately miss it... Home Team Academy, Officer Cadets... i will surely miss and cherish...

P.S. pictures will be posted next week...

Apologies

2008-04-05T16:41:00.002+08:00

Hi everyone... been a long time since i updated... really sorry about it... not that i dun want to update ... just that since the day that my camp have taken away our internet access... i haven been able to update here... and when i reach home... my computer is always in used by my brother ... so sorry about it... i will try to update as much as i can...

Anyway...from 7 - 23 Apr... i will be going to pulau ubin for OBS ... so i wun be around and i wun be able to use my phone at all.. if there is anything that you wanna tell me... can please send mails to phila87@gmail.com or even sms me at 81008990 so that i can see when i on my phone again when i get back...

Actually for these past months ... nothing much have happened... what i have gone through is exams after exams and test after test... the most stressful part of my cadet days... and also... in just about a months time... i will be having my passing out parade soon... ^^... cya people again...

Patient i must learn...

2008-01-31T12:25:00.000+08:00

This morning start off quite smooth and nice... thank God... the swimming - life saving lesson wasn't as bad as what our seniors had mention... the instructors are quite nice... and the life saving lesson 1 is quite fun... lol... i like to be the victim... can "play" in water... lol...

After the lesson.. and comes the nagging session by our "wonderful" trainer that came by and nag at us again... giving us a furious look... wanna inspector our barrack... ah... its always a pain to have barrack inspection... its somehow just irritating... and sometimes they just pick on the most little thing that is insignificant... i am losing my patience for him... even though there is nothing is can really do... i really wanna learn from one of my squad mate... able to laugh at everything... sometimes even though can be quite irritating ... but i think ... its really good to be able to do so ... no matter good or bad times... praise God...

After the barrack inspection... can see people having grouchy faces and swearing away about what just happened... we are suppose to go for class... and before going to class ... i went to fill up my bottle... and infront of me... another guy... filling up the bottle and at the same time playing with the thing... so it slow down the filling process... so i was like asking... "eh.. what you doing?" in a joking manner ... coz i dun understand what he i doing... so he is like very worked up and scolded me... feel kind of sianz but i guess... must be becoz of the inspection earlier...

Ah... God teach me patience...

One More Down...

2008-01-30T12:51:00.001+08:00

Ah... this morning marks the end of my PDT (police defence tactics) ... dun need to tear my pants and spend the whole night sewing it myself... :) ... Becoz of the test that we have... we suppose to do all the tactics as what the instructor says... yesterday we have completed most of them... left with wrist lock... take down... and handcuffs techniques... gosh... there was once time when i suppose to act as the subject ( which means the bad guy ) ... and i suppose to struggle... so end up having marks on my hand... i look like a real subject now ... :S

Actually thought that today afternoon will have nothing le... but in the end they filled it up with classes again... ah... tired... i mark this a the most tiring week in HTA ( Home Team Academy )...

Oh yeah... the pictures... i will update them soon...

Most Tiring Day... in Camp...

2008-01-28T20:28:00.000+08:00

Today is an extremely taxing day for me... its not that its full of events but its simply so packed that i dun really have time for breather...

Actually everything already started since yesterday... Yesterday ... everyone need to book in by 9pm but my buddy and i need to book in at 7.00pm becoz we are on duty for provost ( provost duty is something like prefect that you see in sec sch )... and our duty lasted till 10.20pm... it was already kind of tiring becoz in the early afternoon i was at home helping out with the spring cleaning...

Morning woke up at 5.30am for breakfast... and whenever i have a chance to close my eye... i wun missed it... right after the flag raising at 7.00am ( in case you dunno ... we have flag raising like secondary school )... we went for PDT ( police defence tactics ) class...

I was very sleepy at the start but something woke me up... the lesson today is all about wrist locks and pin down... YEAH!... thats what i always looking for... and my friends say that i catch things very fast... keke... really happy... but the only problem with all these wrist locks practice is that... WE END UP WITH OUR WRIST ACHING... ah... gosh... the first half of the day is filled up with PDT classes from 7.00am to 11.00am...

After PDT class we went for lunch then back to bunk... becoz our officers wanna have bunk inspection ( commonly known as stand by bed or stand by bunk in NS ... recruits and trainees will have their bunks checked for cleantiness )... spend that 1 hour doing bunk cleaning ... and sacrificed my precious time for sleeping :S...

And just before you know it... time flies... its 1.45pm... we got to fall in for the next class... and guess what... its PDT class again... so more wrist locks coming ... gosh... my wrist is breaking... especially when the instructors get me to do demostration... my whole squad look at my face in fear... i think i look super ugly ... almost cried... thank God my wrist is feeling better now... and we got some time to play with the hand cuff for awhile... the class lasted till 6.00pm...

Gosh... after class rushed for dinner and go back to change and wash up becoz we have class at 7.00pm... gosh... i am going crazy... and right now... as i was typing this post... my mind is going blank... lol... God... give me strength... guess i going to sleep really early tonight...

Praise God Praise God Praise GOD!... before i end this post... its like so awesome... someday back... i was thinking... why can people just blast their circular music so loud when i have to keep my praise and worship so quiet... so i was using the lap top that we have to play PnW... ah... and just now i heard my buddy humming the tune... ^^ Praise God...

Ah... Flare up...

2008-01-25T12:44:00.000+08:00

Once again ... that officer met us up and scolded us... and tell us how we should behave and stuff... not exactly what is say is wrong... of coz there is some truth... but why must he speak as if he just trying to make things difficult for us? Ah... God... let me not grow to be bitter against him...:S

Then during lunch ... we suppose to go to another company line to return our things ... the company line is occupied by normal police trainee... so everyone started to be very wayang lahz... wayang then ok lahz... its a good thing ... but then when my friend was trying to say something ... just one sentence... another super wayang just shoot him and he stand very straight with a wayang face shouted ... "fall in dun talk!!!" .. i am like...:S pissed... he is always the person who always talk so much rubbish ...:S .. i starting to get so irritated... ah.. help me!...

Things seems Bad... but God is good...

2008-01-24T19:56:00.000+08:00

Since last night... after dinner... we went back to bunk... suddenly see those Senior officers around ... then the officer that is so call "indirectly" take charge of us... suddenly shout at us saying that we never polish our boots when the shoe that we are wearing then is a shoe that is not suppose/needed to be polished... and for the past 4 months... nothing have been said and he suddenly shoot it out... at the same time he say that we nv cut hair... say our hair long... :S

(seriously thinking about it... thinking after some time... i cleared my mind not to blame him about everything but he is just trying to do his job... but why can't things be talked out in a better way... i dun see there is any space for us to speak our view... there will forever be unhappiness... God.. help me... )

Everything seems to be not going well... it feels really horrible... i guess its a test ... its a trial... God ... Give me strength... teach me how...

Morning during tea break... while getting some snacks... spill the tea on my hands... ah... whole hand slightly scald... :S... luckily it wasn't that bad... Wondering if God din keep the temperature down ... my hands will be gone...

(At this point as i am posting these things... God is teaching me to look at things positively... thinking without God what could have been done?)

Thank God for the love that my buddy have... becoz he see that there is no food left ... he took 2 portion for me... woah... God ... you have such great love...

After that then back to lecture le...

After lunch we went back to bunk to rest... so i bathe and took a nap... then ah... my buddy forget to tell me that we are falling in at what time... for a moment... my emotions seems to have gotten a hold over me .. and anger came out... thank God... i cooled down really fast... and get back my conscious... ah...

Then go to class once again... everything was fine... until we going for dinner... my friends seems to be so occupied with things ... he forget to shout command... God... please help him... later i will go up to him to offer to pray for him... God help me...

Knowledge is Power

2008-01-23T13:52:00.000+08:00

I still remember quite some time ago... when quite a few people was talking to me regarding financial planning and about savings and investments... they all quote the similar phrase..

"knowledge is power "

With the knowledge... you know what to do with your money and you know where to put them... how to make them work for you... be place in your advantage...

For the pass few days... during the course... i have been spending most of the lesson sleeping lahz... coz the lectures are mostly horribly boring... but besides sleeping... i spend quite sometime conversing with a guy... his name is Md Ridzwan... a very nice guy...

Only today that i realise that he was usually labelled as the "teacher" among his malay friends... becoz he know alot more than the rest about islamic teachings... he was studying in religion school before polytechnic... and that really give me alot more chance to know more about them and what do they think about and whats the things that they are concerned about...

And even better... at the same time... becoz of the topics consistantly being bought up... the topic on terrorism... how do we react and stuff... etc...

With the topics as a basis... i start to find interest in the thoughts they have...

I started a series of questions and he answered alot of them... get to know about why are they actually angry with the jews and what is the things that cause the anger.... what they are concern about... about the ideas about the "72 virgins in heaven" ... where will they go if they die... and alot more...

din want to post the questions and answer here... if wanna know what they answer can come ask me lahz... coz i think the things can be quite sensitive... yeah... din really get to know alot more... but somehow as we get to know more about them... its really a step nearer to their heart... knowledge is power...

Be strong and of good courage...

2008-01-22T22:26:00.000+08:00

Dear friends... i dunno what does the titles tells you and how it speaks to you...

1 Chronicles 28:20

David said to his son, Solomon, "Be strong and of good courage, and do
it; do not fear nor be dismayed, for the LORD God - my God - will
be with you. He will not leave you not forsake you, until you have finished
all the work for the service of the house of the LORD.

As i was reading the bible today... God spoke through this verse to me... asking me to be strong and of good courage... do not dear or be dismayed by whatever obstacles that is going to come against us... that he will always be with us... never will he leave or forsake us... till we finished all the work... that God have place before us... the plans that he have for us...

God have given us dreams... given us passions... given us ministries to serve in... so many things that we can do for Him and with Him... growing our relationship with Him...

Its so awesome... knowing that He will always be with us... always and always... and thats really the best news we can have... becoz with Him around... Nothing is impossible... He will lead us to fulfill our dreams, and build this "temple", that is us... building a perfect "temple" that the holy spirit can be in... Thank God...

Glad

2008-01-22T17:59:00.000+08:00

Yesterday i told you guys that i talked to my friend about his issue right?

Yeah... it was quite nice i guess... felt peace in me ... speaking to him... telling about it... somehow can see tears filling his eyes... dun really know what to do... but he seems to have noticed it himself lahz... so not too bad... and he already have made decision about how is he going to tackle those problems...

Seriously... from my point of view... there is really nothing i can do but really just to tell him whats happening... give him some small advice... and just support him lohz... somehow made me feel quite happy about it lahz... I can feel that our friendship have gone another level lahz... its was awesome... and he told me that he was thankful that we talked to him about it... becoz we care... and yeah... we do care... thank God his love...

Tonight is something like the finale to the course that i have been on for the past 6 days... and its like wah... some interesting stuff... some really so boring that you can hardly keep yourself awake... =P... and my friend said that i snored >.< ... i rebutted by saying that its just that i breathe really hard... =P... anyway... dun despise people who snore... they are cute like Snorex in the pokemon... =)

Dedicated To You

2008-01-21T21:40:00.000+08:00

God...

I dedicate this blog to you... post and recording about my
days with you in my life... the Works that you done in me... the visions and dreams you put into my mind... the passion you put into my heart

Many years have seems to pass and alot of things seems to have happened... but God ... i dedicate my life to you once again... Bring me closer...

Today... one of my course mate come to me and tell me about my cluster mate.... saying the things that he have done that they aren't happy about and really irritated about ... then they are like forming a "association" that anti him lahz... then its like wah!... how come become so bad...

When i heard about it... i dunno how to react... especially when he is not the first one... if only 1 or 2 person that say so ... i think shouldn't be a big problem... but when the whole world think so ... i guess there is something that needs to be done...

But the problem is that they are not telling him that they are unhappy about the things he do... but it seems like they are influencing people's thoughts about him... somehow will cause people to dislike him too... i feel sad for him... even though sometimes i do feel quite irritated by him lahz... and honestly saying i did ever spoke bad about him... Hope God do forgive me...

somehow decide that we should talk to him about it... right now he is bathing... i dunno whats going to happen... but God ... please help me speak your words.. thank you...

Bored...

2008-01-20T17:10:00.001+08:00

Today was bored... boring...

The day start off well... but becoz i slept kind of late last night ... so morning wake up really unwillingly and joined my family for breakfast... but after a shower its much better... and happily went for breakfast... then after that... we went down to my grandma house ... a routine visit every week... Dad wanted to rush home to do his "responsibilities"... which is do set up the table for prayer and offerings... i dunno who he is praying to... i think its my ancestors... and followed by lunch...

After 2 hours of rest... we went down to Jurong Point to shop for clothes... din really shop lahz... its actually my mum... forced my dad to buy something and try to get something for me... she chose a shop and ask me if there is anything i want... i say i am not interested... dun wanna buy...

and she said...

" hey... faster buy lahz... dun waste time... i got to go buy my stuff one... "

ah... it simply pissed me off... i mean... you wanna buy things for me... i not interested in the things there... then say i waste her time.. >.< kind of affected ... haiz...

then for the next 1 hour or 2 ... i spend my time waiting for her to complete her shopping and my dad went to test the uSqueeze... he say no feeling de... and my sister reply saying that he dun have a steel leg... lol...

The trip to Jurong Point became worst went my sister bought me the chocolate ice-cream crepes ... its not her fault lahz... but its like as i was finishing the crepe... the chocolate sauce all drip onto my shirt and pants and my whole hand ... :S while i was in my dad's car... ah... :S... and the shirt i only wore it once... hopefully its not hopeless..

Bored...

Ignite Conference ' 08

2008-01-20T01:09:00.001+08:00

Yesterday night ... after reaching home... spend sometime with my computer trying to download all the spyware protector and anti-virus software becoz the computer have just be reformatted last week and din have the chance to do it becoz got to book in le... so as i was downloading the stuff... and installing some programs... spend sometime watching naruto too... keke..long time nv watch le.. end up sleeping at 3.30am... ah...

Today morning woke up at 9+am... realising that i am getting late... rushed to bathe but spend too much time waxing my hair... yes... i was late... oops...

Rushed down and got myself some food and took MRT down to Paya Lebar... Then meet those guys at the CBTL at SingPost... then later went to Ignite Conference...

Oh gosh... Ps Joakim is an awesome speaker... besides being inspiring... there is no other word to describe him... he is really good... he simply made things very easy to be understood and made things seems so easily done... ah! Then he back his points with tons of testimonies and some of them really touches my heart...

As Ps Joakim was speaking... so many many things come to my mind... how am i suppose to reach the people around me... ah... so much so much things...

Reminds me of the question that RX ask me about...

"What is your passion? Where is your heart? What is the plan for yourself to reach your dream?"

During the sermon... I just somehow feel that i have a heart for the secondary school students... i want to reach out to them... i feel that i can link to them... i want to spend time with them and speak life into them... i want to be a like a big brother to them... like what i always feel..

Lots of things come to my mind today... but dun really know how to put it down to words... i will think about it again and post again...

>.<

2008-01-16T14:12:00.000+08:00

Ah... like what i have last posted... now currently attending the home team basic course... ah... super sianz... every moment feels like sleeping... what to do... :S... yesterday having a super bad headache... Thank God now its feels much better now... but still slightly giddy... >.<

Hrm... looking forward to friday when i book out... ah!!!...

10th day

2008-01-10T09:03:00.000+08:00

Oh... today is the 10th day of the year... hahaZ... actually duno what to post so for the pass few days nv come and post anything...

For these pass 10 days ... quite alot happened... quite alot of events...

4th of Jan - Social Night

It was kind of fun and bring a few of us together to know each other slightly better and made a few good friends... the dinner was horrible ... total waste of money but i guess its the company that counts... all of us are suppose to bring our "dates"... most of the people bought their good friends or best friends... a few of the bought their girlfriends... the funny thing is the dressing of everyone...

Firstly... my top look almost like their waiter uniform... that made me so embarassed... super sianz... :S ... they are like asking me to serve them water lahz... >.<...

Secondly... everyone's dressing is different... funny in some ways lahz.. it suppose to be a formal event lahz... but yet there is alot of people who din really wear formal lahz... according to one of my friend... some of them dress till so "poser" ... and there is some who dress so formal that they say loook like going to his wedding dinner... and i put in a "evil" comment that he looks like he is going for his son's wedding... coz he is wearing a suit that is grey in colour ... somehow look quite old lahz...

Anyway... if you thinking who is my date for my social night... look out for the pictures that i will post when i get them from my friends... ^^

Just receive information from my course manager that exams is coming up... so much things to study... so much things to remember... imagine sitting inside the lecture hall for 3 hours everyday... or sometimes even more ... and for the pass 3 days including today... its like 100s of sections of laws and procedures to remember lahz... :S... ah... its worst than polytechnic sia... >.<

Also ... just look up at the notice board... its confirmed... my POP date... 7th of May... A wednesday... hrm... its another 16 weeks to go... inbetween... there is still the home team basic course that is coming up from next week onwards... suppose to be course the brings the people that is in the home team department together... and teach us about each other... according to my instructor... it suppose to prepare us for the time of emergency or in case of war... we will know how to work together efficiently...

Then still got my 11 days attachment outside at the NPCs ( Neighbourhood Police Centres ).. you may get to see my outside with my police uniform on... i dunno how will it be but ... its and experience that i look forward to... after my attachment... coming straight will be the enlistment of our juniors that come from tekong... wondering how will they be ... more slack or more discipline... we shall see...

At the same month... which is march... going for a 21 days full OBS (Outward Bound School) Singapore training... heard that we going to learn sailing ... i guess its gonna be fun... but at the same time... i am sure i going to miss home...

Ah... so much things to talk about... and last but not least... the coming of many other exams and my POP parade... just simply looking forward to that day... 7th May...^^

Just few hours ago.... just finished my PSOC ( Police Standard Obstacle Course) its slightly easier than the army one lahz... or should i say much easier... clearing the obstacles is easy but its the running that is irritating... ah... i am so glad... i thought i would fail... my timing is 4.35... according to my instructor ... its not bad... so ok lahz... ^^.. finally clear it... one thing off my mind...

Yesterday night ... went up to the 8th floor of my company line to have my quiet time... quiet and dark... no people there... and i bring up my guitar and my song book... my bible ... and sit at a place with a tiny glimpse of light... it was awesome... ^^... i was worried that there will be important people staying up there... and i will have my head rolling down... LOL... i went up there becoz i can't find any place quiet enough and also where i wun be disturbing people with the sound of my horrible guitar skills... and my croaking... lol... so my friend suggested that i go up there... it was fun... really fun ... with awesome seneries that is there...

Thank God!

Happy New Year!

2008-01-01T22:24:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year
to
All who read this blog!!!

It's 2008! hahaZ... am i getting excited over getting older? am i getting excited about turning 21 this year? i dunno ... this year... a leap year... a year that is special... contains one more day then a normal year... somehow excited about what is going to happen...

Really hope that this will also be a leap year... a year that i will leap ahead and have a breakthrough in life...

just had my QT and learn of the word... "Baal Perazim" ... according to the Biblegateway.com ... they translate this as Masters of Breakthroughs ... somehow seems to be telling me that the leap year, a year of breakthrough ... and God, the Master of Breakthroughs will lead...

Hope you will be achieving breakthroughs in your life too... through Him...

Merry Merry Christmas & Happy New Year!

2007-12-27T07:53:00.000+08:00

Ah... SHIOK SIA...

today just went back to camp... pass few days was my block leave ^^... 5 days straight... ah... i thought i am back to civilian life... lol... the feeling is "OUTSTANDING"...

Last saturday was christmas bash... it was really nice... reminded me of lots of things... especially the DREAMS that i once have and DREAMS that i was chasing after... but time after time i tried makes it feels so far away and so unreachable... spend the whole night emo-ing... not knowing what to do... lol...

For the next few days ... went out with friends and have fun celebrating Christmas and Makan alot... hahaZ... i going to have a hard time trying to trim that stomach that i gain during Christmas... ah... lol... looking forward to the NEW YEAR!... lalala...

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL... HAPPY NEW YEAR!

One more week to Christmas

2007-12-18T08:26:00.000+08:00

Hrm... in the end ... i can't make it for YI camp'07... really miss out a "BIG THING"... always hate to miss such things ... after miss out such things... it seems to be lacking behind everything and not able to catch where everyone is moving towards ...

Exams in postpone to wednesday which is tmr... hope it gonna be fine... yesterday our senior trainer say,

" you guys better pass the exams, we have shift it back by 3 days already, if you guys still fail, there must be a problem... "

... but at the same time within these few days there are so many "saigang" to do... how to study sia... LOL... i wonder if he knows what he is talking about... but anyway... gotta study...

Just came back from a run around the qian hu fish farm there... up and down ... up and down the hill... quite a nice run in the "nature" ... becoz quite alot of trees here and there... air is fresh... cooling... ah~... i guess its about a 4km run lahz... dunno have anot... seems long but yet not really long... and end the morning with a simple breakfast with bread and chicken franks... and a cup of diluted "teh"...

While running ... there are so many slopes here and there... long and short... steep and gentle... God seems to speak to me...

"Look at the slope ahead, it is just like the race in your life. At times its easy when it's a slope down, at times its slightly hard when the slope is going up. At time its just a short steep slope, sometimes its a gentle slope. Sometimes the slope is going up and slightly steep, where there seems no end, where it seems impossible to reach the end, dun give up and keep going, because the slope going down is just at the end... Keep on going, i am with you... "

Christmas Bash is this coming saturday... its gonna be fun... Looking forward...

Christmas in 7 more days ... Counting down...
One week to Christmas... 7 more days to go...

YI camp' 07

2007-12-12T13:37:00.000+08:00

ah... just receive call from course manager saying that i can take leave for camp... :S...

say by to YI Camp' 07 le lohz... i dunno is it me or what... i somehow have the confidence to go yet my course manager dun allow... its like ... God... you will allow me to go right... but yet the result is like that... i dunno what to expect... i dun wanna give up... dunno what to do...

God... i want to go...

Sewing...

2007-12-12T08:52:00.000+08:00

Ohz... i din know i can sew... keke..

yesterday during PDT lesson... once again... i tore my pants... :S... the place just below the zip... and really big... i was like shucks... cannot change pants or anything... thank God there aren't any girls around... or else its gonna be really embarrassing...

After the lesson... we actually went straight to the mess for our dinner... :S... hopefully no one realise that tore pants of mine... and i think i also forgotten about it lahz... then after that it was raining so heavily that my whole pants was totally wet even though i was wear the rain coat... :S...

Anyway... after the dinner... i went back to sew my own pants ... hahaZ... quite nice sia... and now i am wearing it ... they say can't really see the diff... hahaZ... so happy...

Replies:
kk: thanks ah... i dun have the same hair style as my nephew k?... and i am no longer botak... evil you...

Maggi: of coz he is cute... thats why people say he look like me... =P

Jeremy: haha... just came by to say hi?...

Updates

2007-12-11T07:19:00.000+08:00

Last week have been a "zou bo" week... din do much... just cover up the few chapters of law to prepare us for the coming exam this friday... they say it wun be easy... i dun really know ...

Last Friday's bookout was delayed for an hour or so becoz of the Uniform inspection done on Last Monday.. Many of the us have uniform not up to standard... and me... was penalized becoz of my cracked belt... >_<... ah... also not cause by me... then also cannot change the belt... so end up "kiwi-ing" the belt to cover up the cracks...

YI camp is coming... 17th Dec ... gonna talk to my course manager about it... let not my faith be shaken... more and more events is coming against me to shake it... more and more events is place within that week to make it impossible... i got to trust Him... i want to go... and i will be going...

Sunday went out with family to go shop for furnitures... hardly able to find anything that is suitable... then later end up in a classy chinese restaurant for lunch at rail way mall... kind of nice... and of coz expensive... but somehow i think worth it bahz... coz the stuff is really fresh... also that day had fun with my nephew, Jireh... really cute... hahaZ.. everyone say he looks like me...

Picture of my Nephew sleeping... look like me?

Yesterday was CP's visit to HTA... ah... once again ... the 6 of us... the sai gang warriors was ask to be the turn out guard once again...

This picture was taken quite sometime back when we was volunteered to be the turn out guard for our senior's POP parade.. so we got to wear our number 1 uniform... quite nice lahz... ^^

This is another picture that i took that time... people say doesn't look like me...

But for yesterday's event... we end up practicing for nothign becoz it rains... and there is no need for turn out guard ... draw rifle for nothing ... ah... waste time... lol

Ah... right now suppose to be studying but ... very tired... my eyes closing le... how to study... >_<... GG... ok... off i go ... try to get something into my head... =P

MUG MUG, MUG MUG MUG~!

Exam in 3 days time...

2007-12-11T05:57:00.001+08:00

AH... exam is coming and there is so much more to study... what to do?... MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG!... lol

MUGGING IN PROCESS...

Whats going on with me...

2007-12-04T08:37:00.000+08:00

Morning woke up with a dizziness in my head... run walk jog... all comes with a sharp hurting pain in my head...

End up falling out from the field pack PT...

But thank goodness they din do much ..

I am falling really sick i think...

Tml another field pack training...

2007-12-03T22:09:00.001+08:00

Ah... its making me sick... field pack training after field pack training... does it really help us much?... i dun understand... hrm... and physically ... i think i am really becoming sick... not feeling well the whole day... feeling dizzy and having migraine... ah... its making me so lethargic...

Today went down to several places of interest... they call it a religious harmony tour... we first went down to a muslim mosque... next to a catholic church... then to a hindu temple then a chinese buddhist temple... quite interesting though ... learnt quite alot ... and seen quite alot... quite an eye opener somehow...

2 more days and the mission trippers are coming back... i guess i miss those guys... =P

oh yeah... if i din remember wrongly... today is Ps Daniel's birthday... Happy Birthday To you!... and also to doreen...

Back in Camp

2007-12-02T22:46:00.001+08:00

Ah... its the 2nd of Dec... i am back in camp... 23 more days to Christmas...

Looking forward to Christmas... Looking forward to the YI camp... really hope to be able to go for it... already missed the Mission Trip... dun wish to miss the camp... its another "BIG THINGS" for me at least... i guess its something that every YI member look forward to each year...

for now....

Trainings ... HERE I COME!...

Yeah!... Tml is book out day...

2007-11-29T20:45:00.000+08:00

Yeah... finally... the week is coming to an end...

Today's PT was actually quite physically intensive... my upper body is aching everywhere... and PT until i having headache everytime i run or jog... ah!... jia lat.. all the field pack fault...

AH!... then in the afternoon... we all went down to PHQ for police heritage... ah!... the whole trip was quite nice lahz... know more about police history... but hor... the transport was screwed... we waited 1hr plus for the bus to come... only get to eat my lunch at 1++pm... sad sia...

After that... went back to barrack ... in between we went down to the stadium to help out with the heats... but in the end doing nothing... AH... waste our time...

Tml is book out day!...

Tml... A day of faith...

2007-11-28T20:36:00.000+08:00

Ah..... tml just seems to be a horrible day to go through... early in the morning its going to be a Field pack training... then after that... its going to be the PDT again... i dunno what will happen to my wrist... and then the sports heats in the evening... :S

Tml is going to be a full physical day... God please give me strength...

Guess... today i shall sleep and rest early... spend more time praying ... Please all those guys that are in Thailand now... hrm... wondering what are they doing now?... Wondering how much have God worked through them... ahz... excited....

Just now was kind of irritated by a stupid incident ... i was in the room waiting for instructions... while waiting ... i was playing my game... and at 5.50pm... one of the guy came and shouted...

" what are you doing!!!? din they tell you guys 5.45pm fall in for dinner?!!! everyone is waiting for you guys!!"

Both me and my buddy is like stunned... and like huh? when did they tell us...

When both me and my buddy rushed and went out... they left without us... i am fine with that since we are late... then later... when i went to the mess ( our canteen) ... i heard that saying that they are going to the cafeteria... which means they wun be eating... and they want the rest to eat faster... so that they can go off earlier...

within my mind... i am like thinking...

" huh? going to cafeteria? did anyone say anythign about that just now? and now that we rushed out... i din bring any money along... and if i going to eat at the mess... how unfair is it to rush us so that they can go off earlier...?"

Kind of fustrated about it...

Hrm..

Dear passer by... erm... seriously... i think it will be much more encouraging if you identify yourself to me... it doesn't matter if we know each other in real life... but i would at least like to know who are you... and get to know you... please send a e-mail to phila87@gmail.com

Police Training...

2007-11-28T08:41:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was a tough day to pass by... everything was physical... lol...

From morning IPPT... to Evening PDT ( Police Defensive Tactic ) ... oh my gosh... it was tough...

Morning IPPT... finally able to maintain my 12 pull ups... though seems to be not so standard lahz... but still... yeah... got through it... kind of happy since i got into BMT... i was a 0 fighter... lol... the other results was ok... and happy becoz i finally got silver for my IPPT becoz i always have a problem in standing broad jump... dunno why even though i am tall... can't jump... hmph...

Then in the evening... it was sick... PDT is always something that we scared of since the last practice we have... we were punished like siao... so this time... kind of cautious of what we do there now... and yesterday we were though to swing the baton and stuff... and got one part... we suppose to snatch our partner's baton... and we suppose to chop off their hands... lol... i think while practice... my partner chop into my wrist... now swelll liaoz... lol...

This morning is a depressing one... my favourite... but become the more disasterous... drill lesson... ah... not that i not willing to change lahz... but just that... ah... coming into HTA... their drills varies from the other drills i learnt and got lots of things to change... very sianz lahz... then suddenly my instructor like point out alot of problem with my marching... ah... X_X

continue to work hard bahz... gotta go lesson le...

9th Week Over...

2007-11-23T22:43:00.000+08:00

Yeah!... another week is over... but it seems like another week of "HELL" is ahead of us... this week ... we were all deployed for duties... and my deployment cause me to have insufficient sleep becoz sometimes we are only able to sleep at 1am and got to wake up at 5+am le... so its like ah!... not enough sleep... somemore besides having duty... our normal program goes on as usual... so during lesson... i think i have went on to visit the ZZZZZZ Monster... ^^

This Morning... my FI just made us clear the PSOC with a field pack weighting 10kg... almost "died" ... but kind of glad able to go through it... coz its like if can clear this easily... means the actual one is no kick already... then right after the PSOC... we put down our field pack and run around the track on the 7th lane... we ran 6 laps... with timing... i wonder how much did we really run... its much more than 2.4km i think ... i almost puke... can't breathe properly and realise that my feet is hurting quite badly...

later i went on to clarify with my instructor and realise that i am a flat foot... all my life nv realize that i am a flat foot... :S then i went on to tell my instructor about my leg injuries and tell him about what the chinese sensei say... He smiled and tell me that that chinese sensei is wrong... lol ... i duno who to trust sia... but he ask me go get a insole lahz... so i better go get one... before it gets worse... becoz of this i got privilege to "chao gei" ... no lahz... but just hope i can get through everything ...

I said that next week will be "hell" becoz my instructor already asked us to bring 1.5litres water bottle to get us water parade... so i think there is more to come and becoz of the coming up sports heats ... he wanna train us up at track and field... dunno how sia... :S *faint*... he say he may have 2PTs in one day throughout the week... lol... i think i going to slim down even more... woooooo^^...

AH... anyway... thanks maggi and the passerby for tagging even though it have been very very long since i blogged... i dunno how but this just tells me that you guys still come to my blog and hoping that i bloged... i am really ENCOURAGED.. and it feels like you guys cares for me really alot... and passerby... i dunno who you are... but what you said really touched me...

to be continue...

Exams Coming...

2007-11-19T16:02:00.000+08:00

Ah... within the camp... we also have exams... after having so much lessons ... soon ... exams will be next week... and just before the exams ... we are on duty... hrm... gotta sleep late and wake up early... kind of sianz actually...

Yesterday after book out... not enough sleep... but think that i should go down to church to support and help out at the car wash... so yeah... went down and it was fun... and Thank God for the funds that we raised... He provided... doing car wash is good... simply can see the result straight after the process... but some cars are simply terrible... lol...

Then after fund raising... went home and have dinner with my family... it have been long since we had family dinner... when everyone is around... kind of happy and really glad... everything went on smooth... Thank God for the Awesome night...

Becoz of the duty we did on Saturday ... we were given privilege to book in at 2359... so really spend lots of time with my family... and Thank God for my dad... for driving me to my camp...

And today morning everything was great... God allowed me to get marksman for my shooting... 101/120... and provided a afternoon without activities for us to rest... i hate to hear others quoting me as slack or my course here is slack... but its just that... its God's grace for me to be able to rest while having a hexing day yesterday...

God have been so good to me...

It have been months...

2007-11-17T01:03:00.000+08:00

It have been months since i updated this blog... or have written anything in here... always been telling myself that i want to write something in here ... but always can't make the effort to write and dunno what is it that i should say... actually was kind of shocked that there is still people that is actually tagging... SURPRISED...

Since my last update lots of changes... about two and a half months ago... POP from BMT... and later after the 2 weeks of block leave... being posted to HTA (Home Team Academy) to be a OCT (Officer Cadet Trainee) ... a total change of my mindset ... a total change of environment... a total change of expectations...

anyway... there is lots of people who always think that HTA only train police... lol... but not really... HTA trains people within the Ministry of Home Affairs... for example ICA and Prison warrants...

Yeah... and ... just a blink of eye... it have been 2 months in HTA... guess have somehow adapted to the kind of life in there already... seems to be more slack but yet mentally demanding... its a total different kind of ball game...

As i update more... i will further explain and tell you guys what i do in there... but right now... guys... please pray for my leg... or should i say my spine ... about a year ago... when i went to the chinese sensei... he said that the vein from my spine to my thigh and knee is damaged... actually can down PES one... but i dun want... during BMT it worked up once... God brought me through... right now... guys... please pray for healing... its hurting real bad that i can't even walk properly... please pray for me... thanks...

Back from Field Camp

2007-08-03T15:32:00.000+08:00

ah... finally once again booked out ... it was horrible to be confined once again becoz of that stupid field camp that my Sgt say that we will "see God" ... becoz it will be hell... i am thinking that it doesn't make sense... but now everyone is using the term "see God" = Tough training...

Just booked out ... kind of tired now... when i am back online i wil update on what happened during the field camp... ^^

2nd Book out

2007-07-07T23:52:00.000+08:00

Thank God! That the companies in school 2 is able to book out... really glad that we booked out in the early afternoon on friday... and thanks to my dad who came to fetch me i reach home kind of early...

ah... during the week actually nothing much happened... but kind of upset becoz i was given guard duty for my birthday... and no one celebrated for me this birthday... but thank God i help him around while i was on patrol ... and they gave me horrible timing like 1-3am and 4-5 am in the morning ...

Hrm... this book out have more time to rest ... but something horrible come to replace the tiredness... which is the pain in my throat... my throat seems to be swelling or something... feeling really painful... it hurts whenever i swallow my saliva... ah... it still hurting now... hopefully it doesn't affect my training.. it kills off all my appetitle to eat...

please pray that i will have good health... =)

Book Out Finally

2007-06-30T01:21:00.000+08:00

After 2 weeks of confinement... finally booked out from tekong... haha!

2 more days to go

2007-06-13T23:39:00.000+08:00

counting down once again... 2 more days to go ...

Today went down to beach road with my friend to make my purchases ... gosh... i was blur like anything... you can really call me sotong... lucky got my friend around ... i dunno what to do sia.... dunno what to buy... PURE NOOB... maybe thats why people say "Chao Recruit" ... stupid and smelly...

keep asking the uncle what is needed... lol... as if the uncle just served NS... lol... (he is already in his 40s) i think he must be quite irritated by me... lol... or maybe he faced alot of noobs like me... lol...

Bought all my stuffs... hopefully they are right... tml will be going for another round of shopping... clear up all the stuff and start packing.. and off i go for my BMT lohz...

Today had dinner with xie lau shi... he treat me to mayim... so nice of him... gave me lots of tips... lol... and of coz some stuff to look out for... and dumb stuff that happened in camp.. lol.. and had a nice chat with him.. =)

3 more days to NS

2007-06-12T00:08:00.000+08:00

the minute hand struck 12... 12 pm have passed by and the next day have come... tells me that i have 3 more days to my army dayz... my army daze...

Lots of things doesn't seems to go right....

I must jia you... i must...

Graduation... & NS

2007-06-11T11:52:00.000+08:00

Been really long since i actually posted anything here... maybe its really going dead or maybe i just duno what to put up here...

Within minutes i will be attending my graduation at Ngee Ann Polytechnic soon... hahaZ... feels kind of wierd.. .but what i am actually looking forward is the meet up of my friends... haven seen them since the first semester ended and i went for my attachment... which is about a year ago?... about 9 months bahz... time really flies...

In about 4 more days... its my day to tekong... according to my friend... he say it was slack... hrm... dunno how lehz... hahaZ... also duno what to expect... suddenly time seems to be so short and dunno what to do within these time...

Hrm... really glad and thanks alot for those who spent time with me and encouraged me and prayed for me... and those that given me tips for NS ... it really helps alot... guess in the end ... i just need to discipline to settle my own life...

AH!.... nervous... lol

anyway... this may be my last post before i enter NS... so... yeah... =P... i will try to update as much as possible... ^^

Anyway... please pray for my family too... lots of things going on... THAANKS!

Once again... i am jobless

2007-04-02T11:12:00.000+08:00

Once again... within a week... i found a new job and lose my job at the same time...

This morning ... wake up at 6+ am just to wait for the call from the school... expecting them to call... in the end... Mr Ooi called at 8.50am expecting me to be already in my "uniform" and ready to go ... and wanted me to down at the school by 30mins time... woah... what sia... expectig me to be waiting every morning prepared and wait for their call... if nv call means no job? then i change back to home clothes?

Isn't that dumb... this morning i feel so clueless at what to do... don't even know if they are calling or not... i waited after asleep... keep sno0zing my hp... expecting them to call soon... i waited and waited til 7.30am... my mum keep scolding me for not wanting to wake up... and i am there turning around trying to catch some sleep...

I spent time preparing the stuff and in the end was for nothing... i went down the school at 10am... and reached home at 10.30am... why? becoz i went down and i saw the HOD and the VP discussing about hte problem and they took the books back from me and there ... i am "dismissed" from the school... just feel like its a total waste of time... so once again... i am JOBLESS... ya ... i am ...

So if anyone have know of any job vacancies please contact me^^... for these few days i guess i would have to rot at home.... hrm... i need $$$ lol...

What have be fallen on me?

2007-03-30T22:57:00.000+08:00

Is this a test or punishment?? tell me God...

What have be fallen on me... since two days ago... have been feeling giddy... my stomach haven been feeling well... everyday seems to have things rolling inside my stomach... can't really eat well ... no appetite... having unstable meal times... don't know whats going on with me health... hrm...

Two days ago ... informed my supervisor i quitting my job to take up relief teaching at yuhua sec... today went down to get info for the teaching and what is the things to take note and what to expect ... what is the procedures... and what i need to do... everything was fine... brought stuff back home to read so that i can be clearer with what i need to teach...

Inside me ... its seems like everything comes perfectly... just as i wanted to leave my old work place... there is a new opportunity... i am like so glad... and now... today ... afternoon... the HOD called me...

HOD: "hey... this is zhiwei? erm... today we have a new teacher that is transfered into our school... and now we do not have funds to employ you"

HOD: "I am very sorry about it... we do not know until today... so i would like to ask if you can be on stand by so that when we have teachers on MC then we call you? be on standby like at 7am?

ME: "HUH?! WHAT?! ohz... ok... "

i really dunno what to say lohz... its really totally out of my mine... i quit my job... no job for me... now i lose my job again... and somemore i specially bought my pants for this relief teaching... :S ... i dunno...

Tell me please...

Confirmed

2007-03-28T23:42:00.000+08:00

Yeah!... this morning the HOD called me loh!... finally ... waited so long... he have a wierd sir name ... MR OOI... hahaZ... (oops... sorry! ^^) anyway... going down to Yuhua Sec on friday... till now still dun really know what to do... wondering what will i be doing... hrm... lalala...

Tml got to go shop for shirts and pants... so that i can look more like a teacher... lol... wondering where to go for shopping ... its going to be bored shopping alone... whos keen on going with me? ... hahaZ... i guess no one... since no one come to my blog... lol

Haha.. yesterday night... my house the fridge broke down sia... everything got to be taken out and cooked... lol... even the shark fin that my dad bought during chinese new year... so today have sharkfin soup to drink... keke... but i did a better thing... i put my rice all into the soup and finished everything... lol!... woah!... nice sia... lol...

Waiting for confirmation

2007-03-27T18:48:00.000+08:00

Today lester have handed my name to the HOD ... hrm... got to wait for confirmation lohz... hrm... also dunno when will they call... hrm.... hopefully it will be soon... tomolo got to do some shopping.. dun have any pants... need to buy some shirt... if not ... hahaZ... teacher no clothes wear si.... lol

Anyway... once again... i din have dinner... only had my lunch... dunno whats going on with me... hrm... maybe i am going on "diet" ... lol ... =)

Updates

2007-03-26T22:56:00.000+08:00

its have been a really long time since i came in here again to update... seriously also dunno what to say...

actually for the past few weeks ... things have been the same... facing those dead frozen meat everyday... packing and stocking up those packets of DEAD things... no life at all lahz... somehow really dread going to work... every morning wake up ... haiz... thinking about work just makes me sick...

Yesterday receive a msg from someone... ask me to take up a job... i am really keen on it yet at the same time... i very scared that not able to meet up with the expectations... hahaZ... and the job is to cover up lester's duty as a relief teacher at Yuhua Sec Sch... lol!... a teacher... somehow excited about it... i going to see lives then to see those dead pork... lol...

yeah... and just 2 days ago... clear up things with one of the brother... after reconciling with him... really lighten me up alot!... same for you guys... if got any problem with anyone... got to clear up lohz... dun keep... in the end will really make things worst...

Past few weeks trying to build the habit of doing my quiet time everyday... hahaZ... kind of successful but yet ... going abit down slope... but got to jia you lohz... and hold on.. and dun give up... hrm...

These few days... or should i say... few weeks... have been losing appetite... losing appetite on food... can go without lunch or dinner... but just eating some small snacks ... just one or two pieces of biscuit... dunno whats up with me... this morning din have breakfast... then at about 9+am... have a sharp pain on my stomach... hopefully its not gastric... nv had any history of gastric in my family...

Hrm... life is all about making choices... and its true...
"its COSTLY to be OBEDIENT"

Results is OUT!...

2007-03-14T22:57:00.000+08:00

oh manz... the result is out ... and really out... OUT of my mind... :S

my final semester result, based on my Industrial attachment program... i got a B+ for attachment... AH!!!!... that stupid teacher why give me a B+ but not a A?...

Haiz... you guys might ask me ... what's the big deal? not like abit diff... but it is... when its a B or B+ ... the GPA for this semester is 3.5... but if its a A or AD... its 4.0... which is a perfect score!... and B+ to A is just a super small gap!!... ah...

kind of sad over that lahz... but overall graduating GPA... i got 2.7185... which is having average grade as C... when i tell people my grades ... people tell me not to be sad... but to be frank... the truth is that i am not really sad about it lahz... lol...

At this point of time... i have officially graduated ... waiting for the graduating ceremony... but there aren't any information about it... so its like kind of fustrating... heard that its going to be june... and thats horrible... also at the same time i do not know when i going to be enlisted into the army... there seems to be so many unknown...

Hrm... also wondering should i stay on at my attachment place to work with that pathetic pay of $5/hr... hrm... so many unknowns... i need some direction... please pray for me...

Update...

2007-03-14T00:27:00.000+08:00

Just suddenly feel the urge to come update abit... it have been a long time since i come online to update...

Everything seems to be the same for me... yet at the same time things seems to have changed alot ... hopefully its good... =)

Days have become more systematic... it seems as if everyday its the same... go work... then go home... then sleep... everyday seems like the same... but yet at the same time... theres lots of changes in between... my attitude towards the things that going on... change of mind set... change of targets... change of goals...

Days have become more quiet too... don't have much "exciting" things going on... also dun have things that makes my heart skip a beat... but there are things that goes more peaceful and more fulfilling...

Haha... sorry... but it seems like whatever i say sounds so contradicting... hahaZ... maybe thats me... i have a contradicting character?... hahaZ!... thats for you to find out... anyway... i dunno if there is still any reader that goes by... but for me... just want some where to fill in my thoughts...

Tomolo is the day... the day the results of my final semester in polytechnic... wondering how will it be... my friends were all expecting some 4.0 GPA for this semester ... i also dunno how will it be...

Currently still working at the place of my attachment... dunno whether should i move on to a better paid job or stay on to help out with my supervisor, wanzi's dad... he is really a nice guy... hahaZ!... hrm...

Wondering when will be my enlistment... life is becoming abit stagnant... do not know how will my life become when i get enlisted into the army... at this point of time... really pray that i do not get distracted... if not ... i am worried that i will be backsliding somewhere if i dun focus... hrm...

its getting hard to not think about things... hrm...

Comments on Movie - Epic Movie

2007-02-21T23:13:00.000+08:00

Storyline:

4 kids from different places bought together by a "golden ticket" to "choc factory" and later found themselves into the cabinet and lead them to "Gnarnia" (pronous with a silent 'G')... later met with different people and lots of 'unbelievable' and 'unexpected' events.

Comments:

Grade: (0/5 stars)

the show is simply dumb and totally not worth watching.... its a totally waste of time... the story wasn't developed well and every was so sudden ... its obvious that its a super low budget production and the ending just horrible... i thought it was the worst movie i ever watched... and its only 1hr 15mins...

Comments on Movie - Ghost Rider

2007-02-21T22:57:00.000+08:00

Storyline:

the movie is about a guy, found out that his dad is down with cancer and exchanged his soul with the devil for the health of his dad... but the dad still died becoz the devil dun want the dad to live... so this guy is simply conned lahz...

At the same time... before he know about his father's illness... he made a promise to his gf and say that they wants to elope together... but in the end he din... becoz of the deal with the devil... and the gf left...

the story goes by with the main character growing up and become a famous stun biker... (just for infomation: the main character's dad is also a stun biker when he is alive together with the main character )

When he grow up... at the same time... a character named 'black heart' appeared... and wanted to get a contract that enable him to get the souls of thousands... and the main character is once again called by the devil, (as he have given his soul to the devil... he have to somehow work for the devil... ) to kill black heart ...

Comments:

Grade: ** (2/5 star)

The story itself is fine but everything din seems to be well developed and the story jsut seems to rush by... there aren't much action by the ghost rider and all the baddies just seems to be 'settled' easily without much struggle so not much excitement involved... Even the ending is sudden and it was not really well done...

Chinese New Year ...

2007-02-21T22:46:00.000+08:00

I guess chinese new year just fly pass... and i din catch anything of it... maybe chinese new year is just as it is... nothing much can get get out of it...

Every year... chinese new year is the same... nothing have changed much ... even the things we do... its the same...

New year eve - tuan yuan fan...

1st day of chinese new year - visit my paternal relatives then the maternal relatives then go out ... same kind of things every year...

2nd day of chinese new year - aunty place... and do nothing ...

3rd day of chinese new year - slack...

hahaZ... its never much interesting...

after all ... i have accept that this is a festival once a year that i ever see my relatives... most of them is really once a year type...

bored...

How did i spend valentines day?

2007-02-14T22:18:00.000+08:00

Today as usual went to work... but woke up late... :S... so rushed to work... then the time just seems to tick by slower than usual... its like a dread at work today... ah!... going crazy...

Then my collegue was like asking me... hey... you got gf? never go out mehz?... i am like... hahaZ!... no lahz... where got gf? anyway... after work very late liaoz... go where sia?...

then when its about time to end work... i was like thinking... will anyone ask me out?... will i be going home alone and just rot?...

hahaZ!... and i did....

Today... my supervisor as usual sent me home... really thank God for him...

Went to kopitiam to order food to bring home... and also bought my fav waffle for dinner...

makan liao went online awhile then go take a nap... when i wake up ... its already 9+pm... oh... and no a single soul came home yet...

so i was like thinking... my sisters must have went out with their husband and bf... my brother must have went out with his gf... my mother must be flooding herself with work... or maybe a day out with my dad... so ... i just got to be alone facing this computer... hahaZ!

just thinking through my mind... and talking to myself... and God(my valentine)... He spend the whole time with me... i really glad i have Him ... if not i really would be alone... keke...

"Whether we spend this day alone or with someone... remember to spend more time with your loved ones... cherish them... also believe it or not... you are sure to be a valentine of someone... "

even at this time ... i am all alone at home... though i am kind of sad and sianz... but really pray that they will all have fun and enjoy... and come to know God one day...

"Today ... is God's day... day of Love... "

Jia You

2007-02-12T22:36:00.000+08:00

Hrm... so many things have been happening...

God's love and grace just never changed abit...

Can be just so amazed at how He changed the circumstance and guide us on...

No matter whether we do right or wrong... He just simply never change...

Thats why He is God... haha!

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I am also confused whether i am doing well anot... but i guess i am on the low side... but according to someone... if i am still aware that i am not doing well ... that means that God is working in me... keke... sounds encouraging though...

Got to Jia you lohz... these few months will be working and working thats all... until the day where i become botak...

Actually kind of worried about going into army... physically and mentally i am not really afraid... even when everyone talk about the kind of "locked up" feeling... and the kind of physical training... i dun seems to be really bothered... but some where inside me is more afraid of my spiritual level when enter army...

As what some brothers describe it... it just seems to be some "dark" place there many will fall into the "black hole" and get sucked in and never come back...

Hrm... got to jia you lohz...

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To all those have just gotten their 'O' level results... whether is it bad or good... if its good... congratulations... but if its not really well done... or you have not done your best... dun spend anymore time getting discourage...

Just in 2 days time... many of you got to hand in the JAE form... spend these two days really pray and ask God... where he want you to go... it simply determines the rest of the 2-3 years ... especially for those who want to enter the polytechnic ... and for those who decide to enter a JC... set your mind to score well... for you only have one route to go... ALL THE WAY>>> its almost a must to enter a UNI...

Update...

2007-02-12T00:05:00.000+08:00

hrm... just came by to update abit... before people start complaining about my stagnant blog... lol... Juz kidding... ^^

Hrm... where should i start from?... ok ... i shall start from...

I HAVE COME TO THE END OF MY POLYTECHNIC LIFE!

just yesterday... i just handed in my final report for my attachment ... and in a month or so... i will be officially graduating from Ngee Ann Polytechnic!!

its seems like a good thing... but still when i say that i am graduating from my polytechnic... at the same time... i am stepping into adulthood... which means... no more a student... got to work all day!... AH!!!... that is horrible!!!... how i wish i can go back to my secondary school...

anyway... times just seems to fly ... fly so fast that its impossible to catch up with ... not able to get a hang of it... by July ... i will be 21... it just like not long ago i just enter polytechnic... at the age of 16-17... able to watch NC 16 shows... then its just flies... i can watch M18 movies... and just in a few months time... its R21... its frightening...

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in a week time... it will be CNY... and when CNY comes ... new clothes comes too... hahaZ... today went to JB with my sister and brother in law... went around shopping at City Square... spent about 2 hours in "In-Base" ... a combination of few retail outlets... i think i walked in and out of the changing room 3-4 times... each time taking at least 2 pieces in ... hahaZ... its crazy...

In my mind... i just want to clear this shopping in one day... at one place... so that i do not need to think about it anymore... hahaZ!... and thank God ... i really cleared the shopping within that 2 hours... i literally sweat in the changing room... hahaZ!...

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Anyway... my fingers are getting better ... thanks for your concern if you have asked about it... though i just got a cut from the "violent" game during cell group yesterday... but i think it was fun... hahaZ!... there just seems to be lots of fun when violence come into the game... hahaZ!... seems like i am getting abit sadistic... WAHAHAHAHA!!...

Nowadays... got to really organise my time well... i do not hav time for everything... only have time for my work... Quiet time... some relaxation... time with my family... do some house work... besides that... i dun think i have time for anything else... anything that comes in will just add on stress to me... if we do the things that God wants us to do... our time shouldn't be really that packed... keke... =)

Just a thought...

2007-02-05T21:15:00.000+08:00

"Stop looking to your past and hope for things to happen for your benefits ... but start praying for your future and the things that will benefits others....

Looking to your past will only drag you from your future... And things that benefit oneself, oneself can never be satisfied

Therefore cast down yourself and start praying for your future... and things that benefits others, God will be glorified"

Feb

2007-02-04T01:47:00.000+08:00

Woah... its already feb... time just simply seems to move on so fast....

how much time do we really have? its just a blink of eye... i finished my attachment already... and all i need to do is to hand in my report and ... Thats it... i am a diploma graduate...

soon my birthday will come and i will proclaim my first year of twenties... and soon... i will be enlisted into army to serve the country as a botak boy... times flies ... really...

but at this point of time... i dun even dare to look so far... how sure am i that i going to live till that day... even though its only few months later....

hrm...

everyday is specially given for a purpose... for something to be done... for something to be accomplished...

God din give us that one more day of life for no reason... though i do not have an answer... but i would want to know...

many of us just seems to be wasting our time ... our days on nothing... just no purpose in our daily lives...

learning to look for the new direction everyday...

Dunno...

2007-01-31T22:46:00.000+08:00

First of all... thanks for all those who tagged ... thanks for your care and concern about my finger... keke... thought its still quite bad but i think its getting better...

Dunno whats going on with me... have been getting into daze... dunno what i am think... have not really been myself... all kind of thoughts struck me... never understand what am i think about and the worst is that they all dun link ... getting confused by myself... constantly going into daze and staring into blank... as i was working... my mind just drift off even though my mind is still working...

Since monday... i have been working OT to help me supervisor with the stocking up of the retail store in the factory... anyway... i guess i din mention it... my supervisor is actually wanzi's dad... someone from church... its like such coincidence... hahaZ... i think i also abit slow in mentioning such things... my attachment is like ending this saturday and i now then say... haha!...

Yah... so have been working from 8.30am to about 8.30pm everday.... about 12hours?... yup... something like that... somehow got the feeling like i am drowning myself with work... while i am working i dun feel tired... but when i reach home... i feel like collapsing... its kind of hard for me to even sit here and type this post... my eye is shutting up...

Just abit of update on my work today... kind of tedious... alot of things to do ... never stop doing things... besides sitting in the pantry and drink water and get some snacks... kind of fierce lahz... somemore... the weather nowadays is like so cold and the wind is so strong... without questioning... the temperature in the freezer seems even more cold... aH!... "burrrrrr~"

I think i am getting lots of injury on myself... knocking my back on the door knob... knocking my shoulder on the edge of the metal thingy in the freezer... knocking my ankle on the metal cart... bending too long and straining my back... soaking my hands in the cold water for too long ... i think my left hand is losing its feel... it seems to move slower as if it got some slow spell cast on it... the bones are aching... :S

hahaZ... i think soon i can write a book call...
"ZAC and THE MONSTEROUS FREEZER!"
hahaZ!...

Zac is a name given by a very good friend... its derifed from the first letter of my name ... (Z)hiwei... yah... so ZAC... thats how it comes by... but kind of like the meaning of it... it actually meant... the Lord remembered... or God remembered... something like that... yup... sounds meaningful though... anyway... yahz... thats all for today...

Pain!

2007-01-28T13:03:00.000+08:00

Just an incident about what happened yesterday....

Ever since YI camp... i seems to be having dry skin on my right hand... i dunno why but its just irritates me... skin keep peeling off and off coz it starts to hurt...

Yesterday ... while praise and worship... i was clapping my hand... and suddenly i felt a sharp pain on my third finger of my right hand... looking at my finger... i am like "OH MY GOSH!"

MY SKIN SPLIT OPEN... OUCH!...

so its like ... sianz... i cannot clap properly liaoz... hahaZ!...yah... then end up with plaster again... and i realise one thing... for the past 3 weeks i have been putting on plasters right after service becoz of this... but yesteday's one seems abit worst... coz it split abit bigger... :(...

already put medication le... but doesn't seems to help much... dunno how... hrm... Only can pray that God will heal my skin... = )

Thanks...

2007-01-28T12:52:00.000+08:00

Just another 6 days ... i going to end my attachement ... actually i got to thank God for so much things that happened within the 5 and half months... time seems long but yet God made it so smooth and fast for me...

Over these 5.5 months ... lots of things happened and lots of events ... lots of problems... but God brought me through all of them... and continuously blessed me with great people around me... allowing me to go for mission trip and YI camp... allow me to rest when i am not feeling well... its all by God's grace... i hardly hear of anyone who took ever took as much leaves as i did... and God still allow me to achieve good grades for both my company assessments... so really THANK GOD for it...

Thank God for people that have came by to tag... really appreciate them alot... just like what i said... your tags are encouragements for me... THANKS...

Icy Cold...

2007-01-23T22:05:00.000+08:00

Should i say... i was really burn out...

Today morning trying hard to get myself out of bed... AH!... *Yawn*

Went to work and got to do lots of packing ... packing ... packing... then after that.. had a horrible stomach ache and off i go running towards the toilet...

I guess my collegues can guess what did i do with the sweat on my face... LOL...

anyway... work after lunch was horrible ... i spend so much time inside of the freezer my ear seems to be dropping off becoz i can't really feel them there... my gums froze up and my teeth was chattering... i thought i felt my lips swollen becoz i can't talk properly as if my jaw was stucked... my gums taste like as if it was bleeding... my hands froze up so much that it turn hot pink... literally hot... my toes seems to stick together ... my nostril came dripping out chandol...

thats the best i can describe how i felt inside there... its just simply cold... coz i went in and out of the freezer so much... headache struck my head so often ... i thought i was going to faint... and i at that point trying to pray in my heart...

" God!... Would you give me some warm? "

I believe God's warm kept me alive...

Inside the freezer... i was suppose to move the cartons around... each weighing the minimum of 10kg ... to about 35kg... i guess this is another reason for my numb hands... and also move the cartons up to the second storey ... so i was climbing up the pallets... i thought i climb like a monkey for once... hahaZ! maybe a freezing monkey...

In my mind... i just want to get out of the place asap... and half way while i was working with my supervisor in there... the lights went off... becoz the people in the another department went home... and luckily my supervisor brought a torch light... if not ... i think i may die in there...

Anyway... did i mention that it was -18 to -20 degrees? its was simply horrible... i was just in my jeans, tee shirt,lab coat, gloves, hair net(its amuse me abit by how it actually kept my ears warm..) but anyway... its like not very thick in anyway you can think bout... but thank God for preserving me... =)

Freezing...

Problems nv too big huh?!

2007-01-21T21:56:00.000+08:00

Siheng... i agreed with whatever you said... its not that we always look down God can't see us... its just that when we look down... we only see depressing hell and never see the greatness of God...

These few days having some personal problem... and to myself ... i believe that i can do nothing through my own strength... dear friends... please pray with me... please pray that God help me to hold on to Him... please pray that He gives me strength... and at the same time... wisdom to solve my problems...

These few days have been in dilema... and dunno whats going on in my mind... everything seems to be getting messed up.. .but... all i can say is that i trust that God is in charge...

How well can we lead our life if we dun depend on GOD? ... just like how well can robots work if they dun depend on human?

When robots got errors and problems... human repair them... the same thing... when human got into problem... God comes in to do something... IF WE ALLOWS HIM TO...

Dear friends ... whoever visit this blog... thank you for coming... its already an encouragement to see a name at my tag board... thank you!.. =)